Absolutely terrified of taking antibiotic
To some it may not be a big thing , I will try to sum up everything in a short post .
I am 30 and I almost never take medicine , very rare a paracetamol here and there .
At 18 a doctor told me I have gastritis and gave me 3 pills to take each day , that very night I had my first panic attack which was something I still struggle with , when I went to sleep felt as if my heart skipped a beat and I couldn’t breath and started shaking uncontrollably, I called the ambulance but it took 2h for it to arrive ( I lived in a country side) I was fine by the time they came , did na ekg at hospital and I was free to go
After that for a month I kept having that same feeling but at night , shaking and hard to breath but eventually I learned to control it , but more often I feel like one of the nights my heart will just stop, even now 12 years later I still get nights like that .
Now I have had a cyst for almost a year , had surgery last year ( even then j was prescribed paracetamol for pain and didn’t take it ) but this morning when I woke up it was bleeding so I kinda freaked out and called the doctor who wanted to see me urgently which worried me even more .
When I got there I was relieved since she told me is a cyst that’s mostly aesthetic and that it got infected so she prescribed me antibiotics .
Now I never took anything so I don’t know if I have any allergies to any medicine, maybe the one I had at 18 was an allergic reaction to something in the pills ? I don’t want to relive that , it really was getting to a point where I considered not so nice things but kept it together .
Back then at least I had my father I was living with even if not in a good relationship I knew I could go to him .
Now I live alone , flat mates I barely know and I am terrified if I start taking the antibiotic if something wrong happens
Doctors were worried at first and deemed me urgent to be seen hence why I got to see one so fast but it is not something life threatening at least .
I don’t know what to do, I lay down in bed and I can feel this feeling creeping over me of unrest and I’m scared of not acting but at the same time I’m scared of taking medicine because what it if doesn’t suit me