u/Jasmineiro

I started a relationship in high school; I had my own tastes and interests, and he shared the same... However, over time our relationship became increasingly toxic and abusive, I broke down and he took care of me... I thought it was out of love and partnership, I dedicated my life to him and he welcomed me... As I got better, I became bothered by how much I was being Reprimanded for being myself, I was afraid of existing within standards that didn't fit his, but it was never enough, and I still left the relationship as someone who didn't give it my all. I'm in another relationship, learning that my taste in music isn't as awful as he said, learning that I can be appreciated as a person and that I need my autonomy and space, learning that... I'm not an irresponsible child, I just have difficulties and that's all. We made life plans together, and I'm forging my own path without him. I'm studying history, although our interest in architecture has always been strong! I got a job at the Municipal Theater of São Paulo And a spot at the federal university. I think I'm sure I like it, but I'm starting to doubt it at the same time... How much of my personality is based on things I like, and how much is based on things I've absorbed from him? I'm on this journey to rediscover who I am and stop treating myself as inferior, just like he treated me... Sorry for the long text, I felt I needed to vent about this, I have bad memories of him, and I confess there's a sadomasochistic side to me that makes me want him to suffer for what he did, so I'm just going to say this and let it go.

I started a relationship in high school; I had my own tastes and interests, and he shared the same... However, over time our relationship became increasingly toxic and abusive, I broke down and he took care of me... I thought it was out of love and partnership, I dedicated my life to him and he welcomed me... As I got better, I became bothered by how much I was being Reprimanded for being myself, I was afraid of existing within standards that didn't fit his, but it was never enough, and I still left the relationship as someone who didn't give it my all. I'm in another relationship, learning that my taste in music isn't as awful as he said, learning that I can be appreciated as a person and that I need my autonomy and space, learning that... I'm not an irresponsible child, I just have difficulties and that's all. We made life plans together, and I'm forging my own path without him. I'm studying history, although our interest in architecture has always been strong! I got a job at the Municipal Theater of São Paulo And a spot at the federal university. I think I'm sure I like it, but I'm starting to doubt it at the same time... How much of my personality is based on things I like, and how much is based on things I've absorbed from him? I'm on this journey to rediscover who I am and stop treating myself as inferior, just like he treated me... Sorry for the long text, I felt I needed to vent about this, I have bad memories of him, and I confess there's a sadomasochistic side to me that makes me want him to suffer for what he did, so I'm just going to say this and let it go.

I started a relationship in high school; I had my own tastes and interests, and he shared the same... However, over time our relationship became increasingly toxic and abusive, I broke down and he took care of me... I thought it was out of love and partnership, I dedicated my life to him and he welcomed me... As I got better, I became bothered by how much I was being Reprimanded for being myself, I was afraid of existing within standards that didn't fit his, but it was never enough, and I still left the relationship as someone who didn't give it my all. I'm in another relationship, learning that my taste in music isn't as awful as he said, learning that I can be appreciated as a person and that I need my autonomy and space, learning that... I'm not an irresponsible child, I just have difficulties and that's all. We made life plans together, and I'm forging my own path without him. I'm studying history, although our interest in architecture has always been strong! I got a job at the Municipal Theater of São Paulo And a spot at the federal university. I think I'm sure I like it, but I'm starting to doubt it at the same time... How much of my personality is based on things I like, and how much is based on things I've absorbed from him? I'm on this journey to rediscover who I am and stop treating myself as inferior, just like he treated me... Sorry for the long text, I felt I needed to vent about this, I have bad memories of him, and I confess there's a sadomasochistic side to me that makes me want him to suffer for what he did, so I'm just going to say this and let it go.