u/JayDragon20

(Originally posted in Theistic Satanism and Lilith subreddis, but on helpful recommendation, thought I'd put this in here, too! 😄)

Hi!

I'm hoping this sort of post is acceptable here, as I'm looking for genuine discussion with people traversing a remotely similar path/terrain to me (which, as I imagine I'm not alone on this, is pretty rare in my immediate geographical community; West Midlands UK, in my case).

Brought up in an almost entirely irreligious/vaguely humanistic atheist type family. I've always been more of a strong/steadfast agnostic and never quite shared the humanistic-facing, 'convenient' dismissiveness of the religious/metaphysical question of most of my family, while also never feeling remotely like the Abrahamic religions of 'love and light Oneness' type approaches to spirituality are for me, most critically as a physically Disabled person and fulltime wheelchair-user, as they require a form of submission and what reads to me as uncritical acceptance of terms, pre-emptive reassurance that reads to me often as cope, hindering of autonomy and self-reliance(including spiritually), inability to engage suffering, strain, refusal with the seriousness I feel these require. I've been drawn to Satan and demonic entities as archetypes all through my love. But it's in the last year that, while I haven't 'ceased to be agnostic' in a straight-forward sense, I'm drawn to engaging a directly spiritual adverserial path with intentionality, often on the terrain of shadow work and thinking about how to integrate, interface and with such adverserial figures - foregrounding Satan bot also pronounced focus on adverserial feminine figures like Lilith, Astaroth - specifically regarding embodied experience as a Disabled person. I'm very happy with my path being uniquely mine and travelled in solitude in most respects - which I feel is a prerequesite for anyone wanting to travel the LHP - but I've struggled so far to find people to even 'bounce ideas off' with, and so chose to post to this group on the off chance that anyone might resonate and be interested in discussingany of this further?

Hi!

I'm hoping this sort of post is acceptable here, as I'm looking for genuine discussion with people traversing a remotely similar path/terrain to me (which, as I imagine I'm not alone on this, is pretty rare in my immediate geographical community; West Midlands UK, in my case).

Brought up in an almost entirely irreligious/vaguely humanistic atheist type family. I've always been more of a strong/steadfast agnostic and never quite shared the humanistic-facing, 'convenient' dismissiveness of the religious/metaphysical question of most of my family, while also never feeling remotely like the Abrahamic religions of 'love and light Oneness' type approaches to spirituality are for me, most critically as a physically Disabled person and fulltime wheelchair-user, as they require a form of submission and what reads to me as uncritical acceptance of terms, pre-emptive reassurance that reads to me often as cope, hindering of autonomy and self-reliance(including spiritually), inability to engage suffering, strain, refusal with the seriousness I feel these require. I've been drawn to Satan and demonic entities as archetypes all through my love. But it's in the last year that, while I haven't 'ceased to be agnostic' in a straight-forward sense, I'm drawn to engaging a directly spiritual adverserial path with intentionality, often on the terrain of shadow work and thinking about how to integrate, interface and with such adverserial figures - foregrounding Satan bot also pronounced focus on adverserial feminine figures like Lilith, Astaroth - specifically regarding embodied experience as a Disabled person. I'm very happy with my path being uniquely mine and travelled in solitude in most respects - which I feel is a prerequesite for anyone wanting to travel the LHP - but I've struggled so far to find people to even 'bounce ideas off' with, and so chose to post to this group on the off chance that anyone might resonate and be interested in discussingany of this further?