My road to sovereignty has been a rocky road and I need help.
How come every single time I talk honestly to people, admit flaws, agree with them, it comes across as defensiveness, surrender and desperateness? I've been trying to decouple the "false self" for a while now; I've made some progress, but this is a recurring pattern that has been bothering me for as long as I can remember: turning reality into a personal drama about how broken or inadequate you are, even when you swear that is not what you meant to do. Time and time again, I refuse to be owned, defined, or controlled by any ideology, identity, institution, collective, or inherited trauma. But in doing so, I wonder if I became a fool who thought he was being productive but only served a double bind.
I already wrote extensively about my views here on reddit when it comes to my recent posts, I want them to be so practical and clear that they can be autopiloted, to combat this from happening. But I would be insane to think that this can be done entirely solo, looking forward to your advice.