What the title says. Also, she's probably straight. But she also gives mixed signals. She's so beautiful, she genuinely looks like how the sea waves look when sunlight falls on them in a random afternoon. Yeah whatever this feels like a humiliation ritual, idk how straight men or experienced gay women do this. I wanna throw myself into a wall
Baby gay here. Took me 25 years to realise I am bisexual. I have a very relaxed dressing, sometimes on the sporty side. I wear rings and stuff. Whenever I go out (i am currently in a city with some party culture etc), I see women AND GET SELF CONSCIOUS. I haven't had this feeling of getting so conscious in a while. I find myself attractive, I am cool and interesting as people say, but lately I feel like I am not attractive lmao.
I also dk how gay women work. Do they also just look at women and think 1) she's probably straight 2) I will just look at her and never talk to her, 3) she probably thinks you aren't attractive, 4)keep walking. Because THIS is what I keep doing. Even complimenting a woman feels creepy now, let alone flirting or approaching someone (because then again, what if she is straight?). Yeah I am losing my mind.
I'm not even saying this in a bad way😭, its just an observation that sometimes I feel like I am in a physics problem walking against a windspeed of billions.
What are some nerd activities to indulge in (especially during daytime)? I'm not big into partying or drinking, but would love to make new friends and meet new people. I'm relatively new to the city.