me recently lost the only boy me ever really wanted to be with
510 days and me still remember everyday like it was just yesterday
the day we first met
every call
every sleepcall
every silly texts
every videos we watched together
every games
every stupid little fight
every moment we just existed together doing nothing
crying together
and somehow those were the best parts
me never regretted any of it
not even once
you were literally everything to me
it’s my fault that I hurt you and I will never forgive myself for how I hurt you, no amount of sorrys can fix that
me fell too hard
got too attached
too obsessive
too much in general
i just wish i can go back or disappear right now after our final goodbye call and you said that you'll still see me as the sweetest boy you first met and fell in love with for the last time
i really just had to fuck it up huh
me really sowwy for all of that cutie
but even with all the mess
me just want you to know
me loved every second we had
me hope you really did too
me understand why things ended
even if it still hurts
even tho we just met in reddit
and couldn't see each other irl
you’re still a part of me
I don’t think that’s ever going away
I was so lonely before you
and you changed that
even if it was only for a while
and honestly
me still really grateful I got to experience that at all
I felt lucky
like actually lucky
just being the one you talked to and the first
me tried my best to protect you
to make you feel safe and happy and the most loved boy
the same way you did for me
I guess I wasn’t enough to keep that promise
I just hope you’re okay now
even without me
me’ll miss your hot soothing voice
when you read me bedtime stories
whenever you snore loudly and i wake up at the middle of the night
the way you say the names you gave me
your beautiful ocean blue eyes
your very cute fucking face
everything about you
yeah
this is it i guess
me wuv you forever still
my one and only Willy Pie
me wuv you forever <3