Mother just “disowned” me, what to do next?
To make a long story short, my mother called me last night already frantic and angry. We got into an argument because I told her the truth, which is that she’s not interested in anyone else’s opinions(she calls me for “advice” and then ignores it). For more context she also has earthshaking anxiety which she expects me to manage and calm her down, leading to her calling me at all hours of the night. She also has substance abuse issues.
She went off on a long rant about how she’s smarter than everyone else and knows best, and that basically, since I’m not “supportive and positive enough” that she’s going to cut me off entirely. I am unsure whether or not she means it this time. She’s thrown me out of the house many times in the past when I was a teen and it was never permanent. However, this destabilization in my life makes it hard for me to make decisions.
Where I would like advice: I was accepted into an expensive college, I got a scholarship but it only covers about a third. I have a week to rescind my acceptance and go to a cheaper school. Whether or not my mother means it, I am considering walking away on my own because of this constant threat of having the rug pulled on my life.
We are financially pretty tied up, so she’s constantly leveraging it. I am afraid of walking away, because I know how difficult it will be financially for me, I also have a handful of medical issues that are expensive. So, should I try and see if she swings back the other way? Or is it time for me to walk away for good?