I'm the biggest definition of a loser
I don't mean to insult myself. I don't have a bad opinion of myself. But the truth is; hyperacusis made me a loser. By loser, I mean a person who loses out on everything in life.
I got severe hyperacusis and noxacusis when I was 26. I used to have hopes, dreams, and passions. I lived and breathed for jazz music. I wanted to travel. I had my whole life ahead of me.
But now that I'm almost 33 I finally have to accept that I'm a loser. Not a lame person; but a loser. A person who lost out on every experience of life. I'll never travel again. I'll never have a wife and kids. I'm simply sustaining my life, at the bare minimum of eating and sleeping, until I can't anymore.
If I ever get dental problems? Lord knows what I'm gonna do, because I can't go to a dentist.
For all my brothers and sisters out there going through this; I feel you. I have no reason to live anymore, I'm just going through the motions.
I hope you all have better days ahead. I don't even think about the future anymore. My dreams have been shattered and I'm just existing until I don't anymore.
Bless you all