Something was wrong with me for 5-6 days. Today at the temple I began crying for no reason. The moment I stepped out, it lifted. What happened?
For the past 5-6 days I was feeling completely off. Not depressed. Just... lost. Disconnected from my prayers, which never happens to me. Constant exhaustion despite sleeping enough. Heavy eyes. No energy. I'm someone who runs on 4 hours of sleep normally, this was not normal.
I couldn't explain it. The heat in my city is brutal right now so I half-convinced myself it was that. But something felt different. The disconnection from prayer specifically was what unsettled me most.
Today is Shani Jayanti and Amavasya. I went to the temple. Prayed to Hanumanji, Shani Dev. And then I stood before Mahadev and just began crying. No trigger. No specific thought. Just tears. A stranger walked up and offered me a rose and asked me to place it on the Shivling. I did.
I stepped out of the temple and something had lifted. Eyes clear. Mind present. Felt like myself again.
Took a salt water bath with rock salt in the evening. Went back to Hanumanji. I climbed a flight of stairs and felt zero breathlessness, which I had been feeling all week.
Something was sitting on me and today it cleared. Has anyone experienced this? What do you think was happening, energetically, spiritually, practically? Would love to understand.