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I was planning to go out of state for college, but I decided to stay in-state to get free tuition and stuff, and SCSU is the only place in Minnesota that offers an atmospheric science degree. The thing that makes me question if it's good or not is the math requirements. Every other college requires like calculus 3 and differential equations but SCSU only requires up to calc 1 and differential equations. I'm not going into research, so I won't need too much math, but the lack of math classes has me suspicious.

So I want to start off by saying I am religious and believe in god and the bible 100% but have alwyas been interested in one thing. What stories, events, and people have actually been confirmed. I know theres loads of things we have yet to discover but what have humans already discovered?

Math has never been my strong suit but my dream job has always been broadcast meteorology. I’m solid at physics but have always struggled in math. Is it even worth trying? I’m willing to put in the hours to pass math and I know broadcasting is more public speaking over math. I’m planning to attend Mississippi state university for the broadcast meteorology degree.

For context before I talk about everything I have Guillain-Barré Syndrome which caused neurogenic bladder. I was in the hospital and it was decided I needed a catheter. The catheter placement went horribly wrong. They thought everything was fine but within seconds it began draining lots of blood. Within 30 minutes I had a fever and my heart rate was through the roof. I called my nurse and she checked my vitals and I had a temp of 103 HR of 147 and BP of 83/43. I met the criteria for sepsis but according to her it was all anxiety. I remember 30 minutes later I began having chills and rapid breathing. Another 30 minutes later severe body aches. I called her again and she said I was just having a panic attack. I don't remember anything after that other than waking up 2 days later in the ICU after going into septic shock. It took 6 hours for shift change to happen and a new nurse to check my vitals and realize something was wrong. Ive considered suing the hospital because they jabbed the catheter into the wrong spot basically giving bacteria a direct entrance to the bloodstream. Ive gone septic 2 more times since then and have not had anywhere near as bad of an experience as I did this time.

Anyone ever sit there and realize just how batshit the last few months/years have been. I went from the prime of my life, peak of my physical health. To just nothing. Celebrating every flick, every step, ever movement I couldn't do last month. I look back at where I was January 22nd at my nadir. I look back and im just like god damn im a fucking warrior. Life tried to kill me and instead of taking it like a bitch I said "hell no" I fought back. From the brink of death. Im walking now, not much but it's sure as shit more than I was walking in January. Hell im working a job after 8 months just started today. Ive gone through more in these 8 months than most people will go through in their entire lifetime. I advocated for myself when doctors weren't listening and I got shit done. I know this story sounds familiar to alot of you. Be proud of yourself turtle warriors. We've been through alot. Even if it doesn't seem like it now.

Things are finally starting to look up for me. I got a job that is very accomodating to my current condition. I got a 4 wheeled walker. Managed a 193 and 120 foot walk close together. Im getting to do what I love and update my local community on an upcoming storm. Things are just going good for the first time since I developed this horrific disease. 8 of the worst months of ,my life where I wished I was dead every second of it is finally seeming to end. Im by no means happy but ive accepted this happened finally and won't go away. Im no longer wishing I was dead every second of the day. I have things going for me. It feels like everything's gonna be ok.

I’m 20 and have been in a wheelchair for a few months now and I know the only job I can do is be a cashier and I’m ok with that. I was a cashier for 2 years at previous jobs but had to quit my old job due to my health and after that it’s been miserable. Every job I apply for everything seems to go well I get an interview then they see the wheelchair and it’s like everything changes and I just get rejected. I know what to say in interviews but nothing is enough. It’s super frustrating that no one looks past the wheelchair.

Im just gonna share a bit of my story with sepsis. On March 1st I was in the hospital for a suicide attempt. I had been battling Guillain-Barré Syndrome and gave up. Due to my GBS they determined I needed a Foley catheter after straight cathing 3 times. Within 30 minutes I began feeling sick. Just overall off. I had a fever first 104. Then the 140s heartrate. I told the nurse and was told it was all anxiety. Last thing I remember was looking at the monitor and seeing my heartrate at 157 before passing out. For 6 hours I lay there unconscious with no one caring that 2h after a catheter insertion I had a high fever and high heart rate. Eventually my BP was taken and I looked at notes it was 63/28. Rapid response immediately called and I was shipped to the ICU. For 36 hours they tried to wake me doing various things such as sternum rubs and nothing got me. March 3rd I woke up and was hooked up to machines and dizzy. lightheaded with blurry vision. My kidneys got hit pretty hard. Nothing else interesting happened.

April 12th I felt this overwhelming wave of dread and needing to die. Within an hour of it coming on I was overdosing on sleeping pills. I arrived to the ER pretty quick because my mom found me and within 30 minutes 104 fever. They knew that wasn't supposed to happen so they began running bloodwork and shortly after my heartrate spiked to 130s. Shortly after my BP plummeted and I was in septic shock again. It was determined I had a UTI that caused 2 kidney infections which then caused sepsis. For 2 weeks I kept attempting suicide in every way I could even with a 1:1 sitter. Eventually the antibiotics began working and since then I have had 0 suicidal thoughts. Unfortunately during that time I was committed to the state due to them thinking I had just lost my mind and now im on a stay of commitment for 6 months.

My point of the post was to point out how much sepsis can affect your brain. Its very untacked about.