u/Jumpy-Round7580

Title pretty much says it all.

What we're working with: I've been trying to take my writing career to the next level, but I'm neurodivergent and the massive list of manuscript issues and poorly compartmentalized challenges have slows my progress to a grind. I'm 28, living in the midwest. And I have a really foolish dream.

I've been losing the battle against burnout for the better part of 6 years trying to get the 3rd draft finished. I have worked on a handful of small, small game projects; an interactive fiction project for IFComp and 4 game jam games, some of which ended up unfinished. I have read no less than 30 odd craft novels over the years. I genuinely, sincerely believe I have what it takes to become a promising new voice in the storytelling world.

Obstacles: I am a college dropout. Ever since the COVID pandemic, I have struggled to find my footing financially and holistically enough to be able to return to school. I've been homeless twice since the pandemic. The financial burdens on me have made it so Student Aid and FAFSA offices at numerous schools that I talked to have pretty much totally given up on me. That said, I have had an acumen for learning and scholarship ever since I was in diapers. But it appears that unless you, the reader, knows something I don't, the academic pathway is blocked to me right now.

I guess what I really need is a pathway. Proof of concept. Reassurance that there IS a place for me in the storytelling industry. I don't want to "be a writer" in the sense of having written something. Because I already passed that point. I don't want this to be a hobby for me. I would give anything to live in a world where I could personally knock down the door to Square Enix, Larian, Laika, Nintendo, Supergiant, what have you, be told "I like your moxie kid!" and be off to the races in a new internship at worst.

But, I'm 28. I know the world does not work this way.

I have applied for more game dev entry level positions than I can count. At this point the application cycle has lost all sincerity. I do not know if I currently possess the acumen for indie/self made authorship. But I'm not opposed to it either.

I do not think I can live with myself if I did not try in spite of this. It's my calling. Its what I want, and its something I genuinely believe I can make the world better by doing better.

Those of you preparing the "don't bother" or "not a good time" type comments, DON'T BOTHER!!!

Please. I've heard this line more than I can bear. I cant let such trepidatious language slow me down any more. If you have any idea what I can do with my life to this effect, let's work together to create a forward-thinking dialogue. I'm actually so worried while writing this cause every single time I bring something like this up on reddit, I end up inundated with very mean spirited and essentially 'dead end' responses. I ask that you find it within yourself to help me. I can't die knowing I didn't at least try.

ok, drama queen out.

I sincerely hate this shit. Why do people do this? It’s like trolling but worse cause it’s someone at a low point in life openly choosing to seek ways to get better. Why would you ever do that to a person? Makes me sad. Makes me angry.

I’m gonna get the classic “that’s just Reddit-the internet” response I’m sure but like. Shut up?

Title pretty much says it all.

What we're working with: I've been trying to take my writing career to the next level, but I'm neurodivergent and the massive list of manuscript issues and poorly compartmentalized challenges have slows my progress to a grind. I'm 28, living in the midwest. And I have a really foolish dream.

I've been losing the battle against burnout for the better part of 6 years trying to get the 3rd draft finished. I have worked on a handful of small, small game projects; an interactive fiction project for IFComp and 4 game jam games, some of which ended up unfinished. I have read no less than 30 odd craft novels over the years. I genuinely, sincerely believe I have what it takes to become a promising new voice in the storytelling world.

Obstacles: I am a college dropout. Ever since the COVID pandemic, I have struggled to find my footing financially and holistically enough to be able to return to school. I've been homeless twice since the pandemic. The financial burdens on me have made it so Student Aid and FAFSA offices at numerous schools that I talked to have pretty much totally given up on me. That said, I have had an acumen for learning and scholarship ever since I was in diapers. But it appears that unless you, the reader, knows something I don't, the academic pathway is blocked to me right now.

I guess what I really need is a pathway. Proof of concept. Reassurance that there IS a place for me in the storytelling industry. I don't want to "be a writer" in the sense of having written something. Because I already passed that point. I don't want this to be a hobby for me. I would give anything to live in a world where I could personally knock down the door to Square Enix, Larian, Laika, Nintendo, Supergiant, what have you, be told "I like your moxie kid!" and be off to the races in a new internship at worst.

But, I'm 28. I know the world does not work this way.

I have applied for more game dev entry level positions than I can count. At this point the application cycle has lost all sincerity. I do not know if I currently possess the acumen for indie/self made authorship. But I'm not opposed to it either.

I do not think I can live with myself if I did not try in spite of this. It's my calling. Its what I want, and its something I genuinely believe I can make the world better by doing better.

Those of you preparing the "don't bother" or "not a good time" type comments, DON'T BOTHER!!!

Please. I've heard this line more than I can bear. I cant let such trepidatious language slow me down any more. If you have any idea what I can do with my life to this effect, let's work together to create a forward-thinking dialogue. I'm actually so worried while writing this cause every single time I bring something like this up on reddit, I end up inundated with very mean spirited and essentially 'dead end' responses. I ask that you find it within yourself to help me. I can't die knowing I didn't at least try.

ok, drama queen out.

Who are you trying to impress? Save some pussy for the rest of us.

People who can’t believe in ANYTHING. Not a crazy story, or a post scenario, or someone’s medical news. Nothing.

Like, holy shit man. Sometimes things do indeed happen in the world. I’m sorry you had to find out this way.

Did like 1/3rd of the driving population in my city just get their licenses on Etsy or something? Why is it that I see SO many drivers use their turn signal as if it is their steering wheel?

Your blinker is supposed to indicate a merge/turn you are GOING to make. Not a turn you are already making. And yet, I feel like I have three heads whenever I bring this up. Are people stupid? Am I stupid?? I always signal my merges/turns at least ~150 feet before I actually turn the wheel, yet I see so many drivers not turn theirs on until they are already halfway around the curb.

Do they know how many close calls they create by not properly using something as simple as a colored light bulb on a stick? Do they just not care?