How do I survive this?
I lost my daughter Giada in May at 38 weeks to a true knot in the umbilical cord. I had a low-risk, uneventful pregnancy until I woke up one day and didn’t feel her move. She was my first baby.
Since then, my best friend had her daughter a few weeks ago, my sister in law is due with her daughter any day now, and my sister is having her daughter at the end of August.
I guess I’m writing this to ask- how am I supposed to survive this? I’ve been seeing a therapist who specializes in baby loss, and my husband is super supportive, but I feel so hopeless and miss my baby so much, every second of every day.
I can’t reach out for support to any of the women closest to me because they are all pregnant/new moms to baby girls and I am so angry and jealous that their daughters are healthy and alive and mine is dead. I’ve barely even spoken to all three of them the past few months. I can’t even bear to be around my own sister. I hate feeling this way.
I feel so hopeless that I will never have a living child, and that I will feel sad and depressed for the rest of my life.
What do I do?