Porn addiction relapsed after 554 days
Oh boy here we go again. After almost 2 years I masturbated (literally exactly 1 week ago) and yes this is a throwaway account due to 1 my main account being very random and 2 me being very guilty and very embarrassed of myself.
For context I am 16 years old. I stopped masturbating 2 years ago because of post nut clarity, lustful thoughts and being exposed to porn at a VERY young age (7 fucking years old) which caused me to be very drawn to porn and all that type of stuff.
So one week ago I was in my bed chilling and I was watching tiktoks until i came across goonbait type of video, and one thing happened after another.. and I masturbated. It weirded me out more than I freaked out, I didn't like really feel ashamed because honestly I had a traumatic experience with porn at a young age and wanted to actually come in touch with my intimate side since I was so afraid and like what if I ever get with a girl and freak out since I hadnt touched myself since forever and was afraid to do anything (if that makes sense) so i didn't take it so seriously until today.. because the same thing happened 1 week later. I don't know what to do, I feel like shit and im afraid this is gonna become a habit again (I used to masturbate like 5 times a day, yikes) and I don't want to be trapped in the same cycle i pushed myself to break for such a long time. I don't know what to do.. I need advice.