I am fucking stuck, everyone keeps ignoring me irl and online, I got no sense of self because I grew up with normal people while I'm ND, HELP ME for GODS sake how to build something and get people to interact with me for real. I am VERY anxious socially. even among outcasts I'm an outcast, they seem more calm and collected and anchored
Does anyone have some advice, im barely 20 (have asd and comorbid conditions) and I feel like my fate is almost sealed. I know being chronically online makes everything worse and I feel better when I cut screen time but I always revert back to it after a few days, generally when I'm bored or anxious (I feel isolated), reading everything possible on the internet for years made me believe I know the future and its bleak. What can an autistic bum like me do to transcend this hellish condition. I survive thanks to my mother only, been doing nothing since graduating school 2 years ago, do you think something could help? drug treatment, therapy group idk.. Will i be able to fucking work? I feel like since I stopped school I wont be doing anything back again I want to settle on the beach and do nothing but drugs. taking example from my own father (undiagnosed asd) and reading bazillions of asd adult burnout stories has nuked my conscience and it truly feels like it's over.