u/Just-Philosopher8665

Eating the same foods over and over again lol.

I ate "nachos" meat, (liquid) cheese, and Jalapeños over chips. 3 days in a row, multiple times a day because that shit just SLAPS.

Macaroni and cheese Michelinas will never get old 🤙I have a stockpile in my freezer no mater what

Canned veggies are top tier in flavor. Can't convince me otherwise unless it's frozen corn (birds eye brand).

Cheese pizza, just plain cheese pizza lol stuffed crust for EXTRA constipation.

Oh and anything hot and spicy. It has to make my nose run and lips tingle for the best experience.

These are the foods I've had in rotation for years lol

I always joke that I eat like an ex prisoner lol but my heart is with "fair foods" or my favorite wording "cartoon food"

What are some of your favorite foods??

I got my ADHD diagnosis last year. Then I got my autism diagnosis in February along with my psychiatrist agreeing with my already ADHD diagnosis. Before all this my 5 year old son was diagnosed level 3. And then comes my 3rd child who is clearly on the spectrum because he just flat out doesn't talk outside of mama and pointing to what he wants. My daughter also has ADHD undiagnosed but at this point I feel like an expert lol.

So anyway I said all this to say, it was necessary that I get a 2nd opinion because now I not only get to lean into who I really am, I also get to help my kids and be there for them in ways no one else can. I understand my babies when they have panic attacks and melt downs. I get to be apart of something that I needed myself as a child and that is very healing to me.

My son had a panic attack while playing outside and a very loud motorcycle had driven by. He ran into my arms and my poor boy was breathing SO hard, since I can relate and I have the same attacks, I guided him through breathing to calm him down.

I've suppressed so much of who I really am, due to my peers and family members gaslighted my whole life into believing I was just weird and complicated.

Now I realize why I will literally do ANYTHING to keep consistency in my life and keep confusion OUT. Including abandoning relationships and cutting people off without flinching no matter how long we knew eachother. (Object permanence helps with that)

I realize why I suddenly lose all my vocabulary when walking into a room full of faces and bright lights.

And why my eyes hurt so bad from the sun that squinting and sometimes sunglasses don't help.

Why I have plug ins and scents in every room of my house including my garage 😑

Why I freak out about certain smells and textures.

And why I never go anywhere alone when I know it will be too many people! Ie the mall on a Saturday!

And not to mention avoiding going out on the weekends and choosing to do all my activities when people are at work.

Last but definitely not least, (whatever tf that means lol) riding past ANY establishment especially the gas station that has wayyyy to many cars there already....

Whew.. thanks for coming to my TED talk. When I write in my diary, my brain moves too fast and I end up scribbling lol so...there's that... Bye 🥰