Hi everyone!
We’re making mosaic bird baths and this is mine. I can’t decide what color grout for it. I was playing around with green and pink. I like the contrast with the green but I like the flow of the pink. Also open to any suggestions, thank you!
I’m a 27F 5’4” and 125 lbs. 3 years ago I was around 175 lbs. I got down to 132 and maintained for a bit but the past couple months I decided to shift my goal weight of 125 to 120 and stop if I felt like I looked odd or anything. The thing is this is still like 10-15 pounds off of being underweight and as a short girl each pound makes a difference in appearance lol.
I keep getting sooooo many comments about being too skinny. My friend who has a troubled past with weight as well is overweight and kind of keeps like “oh you’re too tiny, oh you’re really small (says in a negative way), you looked way better at 140” you get the point. 140 is only 5 pounds away from being overweight and I didn’t like how I felt at 140. I can’t help but think she’s being malicious but idk lol. We have a long history of her comparing us.I’ve also been getting these comments from coworkers. But the thing is anyone that’s smaller says I look great and anyone that’s bigger says I look too small. I’ve lost in a healthy way over a long period of time with maintenance months and fluctuations in between. My friend saying that just made me think about it a lot I guess. I’m good at ignoring these people but at the same time I don’t want to appear sickly. My husband thinks I look just as good as 175 and he said he’d tell me if I’m looking too small as well. Idk. Have you guys gone through this? I still want to lose 5 more lbs lmfao.
Edit: Okay I’m going to add my before and after bc I KNOW it’s chill progress but I just want reassurance too lol. I know i could benefit from lifting weights were getting there lol.
I just want to post about my husband tbh. I’m just really lucky and sometimes it really hits me. He pays all our bills and I clean the house and still work full time but it’s how we split it up. I pay for my car and insurance and stuff like that plus groceries. We eat healthy so it’s usually expensive.
But he never gets mad at me. I love estate saling and thrifting and shopping like all of us do. Everytime I bring new projects or hobbies home or new decor or clothes he doesn’t get upset or mad and asks about them. He helped my friend and I smash plates yesterday bc we decided we were gonna make mosaic bird baths despite my piles of half finished crafts and hobby supplies.
When I’m having a rough go he doesn’t get upset the house isn’t clean and he doesn’t yell or bitch at me. He’s patient and kind and funny and we have so much fun together. He lets me hyper focus and be lazy and goofy and everything in between. He laughs when I body double and teases about why I’m just starting something when he gets home.
He pays for my meds and my appointments and whatever else I need. He cooks for me more than I ever do. Cuts my steak up for me when he grills it. Idk the last time I cut up my own steak. I love him so much. He loves our dog as much as I do. We dropped over 10K on him without it being a question of should we we just did. He lets me decorate the house w my crazy sense of style and let me paint all the walls whatever color I wanted too.
I just feel like everyone deserves this type of love. To be so seen and not judged. I never feel judged by him. I make him tell me he’s proud of me everytime I clean and I make him tell me how skinny I am lmfao. (Recent weight loss lol) we don’t fight to hurt each others feelings. We don’t really fight. We love the same things but also not. We have big dreams and I’d do anything for him.
The craziest part? We’ve been together 10 years since we were 17. We were really realistic my name wasn’t on the house till we were married. He proposed under the northern lights in Alaska btw w a ring that had diamonds on the side in the shape of leaves. I love leaves. We grew together and I think that’s a lot harder considering the phases of life we had to go through and continue to nurture our relationship.
I just felt like talking about good partners bc I feel like us adhd gals seem to end up w shitty people so often ugh. Don’t get me wrong we’ve had our ups and downs but we’ve chosen each other time and again and have never betrayed each other in a way that would shatter what we have. Men almost scare me these days so I’m happy to be with one that is just the best guy
Of course this is our front door and she makes it known when we leave how upsetting that is lol. Tbh she’s getting quite used to us and we try to make it known when we open our front door so she doesn’t get too startled. Babies just hatched the past couple of days. We don’t disturb her much but this is one of the only robins nests I’ve ever seen without a cowbird infiltrating it, crazy. We don’t turn the porch light on either don’t worry.