u/Just-a-random-Aspie

Hello so basically sometimes when I think about things, especially things regarding myself and any like/dislike or identity, my inner monologue will sometimes refer to “I” as “they.” Like I could be thinking “I like the color blue” but it’ll instead be “they like the color blue” or “*my name* likes the color blue.” Also another fun thing it’ll do is talk in different accents, sometimes randomly. Next thing you know my inner monologue has a southern accent when I don’t! I’ve noticed that it happens mostly when I’m thinking over something embarrassing or that I’ve deeply regretted, lol.

Hi, I’m just stopping by because I feel very, very tied to Kenochoric as an identity. So many aspects of my sense of self and inner identity can be tied to this term. For example, I find fascination with scary things (or at least, things that scare me, not conventionally scary things), identify with nostalgia and being from a time that “no longer exists” or “was once here but has since been forgotten,” and feel connected to liminal places in my dreams or in the real world (like nature untouched by humans). In terms of gender, it doesn’t affect me as much, but sometimes it feels vaguely there or muted, so there you go lol. I’ve tried to find subcategories of Kenochoric before, but it seems that most of them (besides Kenochoric itself and the larger umbrella term vesility) only describe gender. I’m also looking for more specific vesility terms in general, because I want to hoard more labels. In terms of Kenochoric specifics, I’m hoping to find anything that describes “comfort in the scary” “bittersweet” or “beauty in the dark” rather than something completely eerie or off-putting. One phrase that helps me ground myself is “never fear.” Like something that’s dark, but also has a light side to it. Any help would be greatly appreciated!