u/JustAConfusedFella

I’m currently deciding between SRM AP CSE and KIIT CSE, and I’m really confused about which one to choose.

My Situation

SRM AP: I’m getting a 50% scholarship, so the total 4-year cost would be around ₹15 lakhs

KIIT CSE: Total cost would be around ₹24 lakhs

The lower fee at SRM AP is attractive, but I’m worried about placements.

What I’ve Heard About SRM AP:

I couldn’t find reliable placement statistics online. I spoke to a few seniors, and they mentioned:

•Median package is around 4–5 LPA

•Placement percentage is reportedly only 40–50%

•A lot of students are still struggling to get placed

I’m not sure how accurate this information is, which is why I wanted to ask here.

My Questions

•Can anyone share genuine/recent placement data for SRM AP CSE?

•How are internships, coding culture, and opportunities compared to KIIT?

•Considering the fee difference, which would be the better option overall: KIIT CSE or SRM AP CSE?

Would really appreciate honest opinions from students/alumni of either college.

Got 50% scholarship in AP camous via srmjee. Tution fees will be 2 lakhs per year. Hostel fees 1.5 lakhs per year ig. Also getting KIIT CSE at full price which would cost around 4 lakhs per year for tution and 2 lakhs for hostel and mess. Confused between these two. kIIT is ofc better than AP but is it 10 lakhs extra better? Also if anyone has placement data of SRM AP, please do share

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