My mom is moving in with me for college
I (17M) am literally about to just abandon my whole fucking life cuz my mom is moving into the boarding house with me for my first year of university. And I mean, we are literally sleeping in the same room with bunk beds.
No, the university I'm going to doesn't offer dorms.
Yes, they picked and paid for the boarding house.
No, I can't move somewhere else cuz I don't have the money, so I'm fucked either way.
Anyway, my ENTIRE FAMILY treats me like I'm 12 years old even though I'm turning 18 in November because I'm skinny, and weak, and have asthma, and they think I can't do anything by myself.
And now I'm impatient, immature, I throw temper tantrums, I'm lazy as fuck (cuz why do anything if I could just have my parents do it for me), and I don't know basic communication skills.
The whole reason I was excited to go to college was to start forcing myself to be independent. I was hoping to shift my brain from "I don't know how to do laundry" to "I better learn how to laundry otherwise I'm fucked."
Would I be completely incompetent in doing so? Yes, but that's the whole point of learning.
I was excited at the thought of getting a completely random new stranger as a roommate. Maybe it'll help develop my social skills, or how to handle living with someone, or maybe I'll finally make a friend after 6 years of having none.
Tbh, I think I feel more comfortable with a stranger than with my own family. (Unless, idk, they're a shady looking creep; then I'd be paranoid)
I DON'T feel comfortable being myself with the people in my life; not with my parents, or sibling (whom I loathe with every fiber of my being), or relatives.
I DON'T EVEN FEEL COMFORTABLE BEING SHIRTLESS AROUND MY FAMILY, AND I'M A GUY, BECAUSE OF ALL THE INSECURITIES AND BODY SHAMING THEY PUT ON ME.
My mom doesn't know the concept of boundaries, she just does whatever she wants. She calls out my name like a toddler, constantly touches me without warning, and I just stand there looking displeased.
I can't even grow my hair out without my mom forcing me to get a haircut because she (and everyone else) thinks it's ugly.
I don't know how to manage my finances, or even what the first step is, because the plan was always to mooch off my fuckass parents while I'm in college; but I didn't expect them to literally move in with me.
But now I'm just gonna try saving up for a plane ticket out of here without anyone knowing, and cut contact, so I can disappear out of their life.
I don't give a fuck if it causes them distress.
I don't give a fuck if they think I've gone missing or been murdered or kidnapped.
I'm ready to pull a Rachel Green in the Friends pilot kind of move.
But unlike Rachel, I don't have any friends to run to, so I'll probably just end up in a suitcase somewhere...
EDIT:
To clarify a few things:
• I do know how to cook, clean, fold laundry, and other basic self-care routines.
• I know my asthma triggers and what to do if an attack happens.
• I'm dyscalculic so big numbers scare me.
• I don't just resent my parents for this one incident, it's been building for years now (I made a post on this subreddit last year about how my mom literally hired a "spiritual healer" to physically restrain and assault me to cure my depression).
• I will NOT be joining the military, that's literally the last thing I would do other than just... ending it.