u/K0smio

I'm not asking for "no, don't do it" kind of comments, I want some harm reduction advice before I try it anyway, because I'll at some point.

As the title says. I've been crying for hours, it's 1 am now and I think it has been already 4 hours if not more. I had to tidy my face and force my tears inside just to dinner with my parents because I didn't want to raise suspect, only to come back crying in my bed. I generally hate being seen vulnerable or exposing myself firstly. Don't even have friends to chat but this hell is making my head hurt so much by now. Any advice?