u/Kalki901

I am 3yoe in Full stack trying to apply for jobs in every jd aws is there and i never worked on aws could you suggest what I need to explore

am a 24m, some serious shit happened 7months back like I had a break up with a girl (met in dating app) after that my life feels like shit even now I got her thoughts after that break up i feel so lonily I play badminton daily just mentioning I have something physical activity but still feels like something is missing and in these 7 months I try to see few people i like few people but they didn't like me,few people like me but I didn't like them so finally i stopped looking for love felt like it's not for me but one thing is pakka I am at my lowest phase because I feel like shit low confidence self doubt every negative thing with all these my professional life is like another weird thing I work a dev and indont have proper work there 3yoe pay is good but not the technical curve i feel like left behindthis is one more reason like no proper work fomo and I started preparing for interviews they are asking for production scenarios and all btw I am mern dev i worked or developed multiple internal tools for clients and on ide kind of platform but no production ex I don't have proper frnds I can't share anything to my family they feel bad I don't where my life is taking me no motivation to live ntg

Thanks for reading if you have any suggestions especially for professional life pls suggest because for personal ik time can only tell us i thought if if I fix my professional life I can be a better guy again but before that I am taking a 10fay period where I don't want to prepare work anything now I want any book or series suggestions pls no self help book just feel good series or good fictional story books which creates some hope some peace as well .....