I can't move on and I could use a hug.
My partner(F) and (M)I (for 5 years) have broken up for 1 month and 1 week already, she seems to be moving on and I am stuck here doing everything that I can to prove that I can be better and change for her.
I am not a perfect partner, I have lapses and I tend to forget things so much, that's why I created a note about her, and try my very best to be better every time. I still love her very very very much but I want to be better and show that I have improved too. I can't move on and I probably wouldn't, because I always feel like she's always my last destination, she's my endgame.
I need hugs, my thoughts are eating me up and I can't bear to think that she hates me or doesn't love me anymore. I also can barely move and have any motivation to do anything, even play or watch.