Severe Crisis right now
I’m gonna make this the shortest possible
I’m 22 years old
From california
Was brought here since I was 2 years old, I didn’t choose to be here but i grew up here and this country is all i know
Family is a devoted Jehovah witness family, I have absolutely no support group because of this religious group
I am a queer guy, there is no way for me to one day be legal unless i marry another guy
The only thing i got going on is that I learned the carpet and flooring trade because of my dad . Next month im disappearing on a random night , early June, all the way to the other side of America, into Illinois
Im gonna be leaving with 5.5k of savings, I already have an inflatable mattress, kitchenware, my legal documents in a box, work tools
I’d rent a room and since I have a compact car, I’m hoping I can work under another subcontractor who works for a flooring company, that way I’d raise money for my own truck without needing to sell my very reliable car right now
And if it works out that way, when i go so solo on the job
I’ll continue the prerequisites I never finished (that i payed out of pocket due to my status) for a cardiovascular tech program because i had forgotten that college is a dream for me. I still have dreams
I’m staying with a friend for the first few days while i search of a bedroom to rent fast. I made up my mind already, if i stayed i could’ve done college under my home but the mental anguish of being supressed of my real self is something i can’t handle anymore it feels like I’m rotting inside .