contexte >!le livre est Metro 2033, & dans la version angloise c'est "the Dark ones". "Les Noirs" ici sont des mutants humanoïde de couleur noir, mais genre noir-noir!<
finished reading, had a thought, made a meme. big fan of the dynamic between these two tbh
forgive the wonkyness, i spent the week outside i'm tired and everything hurts
I've heard about the sexually transmissible dog cancer, cancer trasmitable by biting that tasmanian devils have, and a couple of cases where cancer (like the actual cells) were transmitted between humans (mostly in surgical settings). I feel like Clint's Reptiles has helped popularise the idea of a boneless dog, that being the cancer
so i figured, it acts a lot like unicellular parasites, so, is it correct to say that these cancers are a form of... animals becoming unicellular? reverting back to unicellularity?
i feel like since one cancer cell is enough for the illness to be transmitted, it could count as unicellular, but idk. like there are unicellular lineages of the two species (dogs & tasmanian devils)
thoughts?
i still have the human urge to talk to people but it's making me miserable, i can't feel anything other than just being miserable or occasionally angry, this illness feels like it's taking everything i find important from me and it hurts so much im so tired im so sorry, it took almost all my friends it took my relationship and it took my extended family. I think at this point i'm just permanently damaged and stuck because i'm just no longer capable of connecting with new people, or reconnecting with people i used to know, and i hate it i really hate it. i made so much progress since i had first developped this illness, back then i hated myself so much it hurt me so bad, but even then i was able to be friends with people i could connect with them, and it hurt me so much back then but god did i love them all, i loved hanging out with people. now i can survive a casual interaction with people without going insane, but i feel like i have no one, and i feel so stuck. i don't think i can fix this anymore. it hurts so much. i don't want to die i just don't want to feel like this constantly. i wish i could manage alone. i'm forever grateful for the two friends i have right now, but i feel like i'm gonna lose them too
like i get bad days sometimes and that's normal i think, but i hate when i sometimes have whole periods where i just feel like shit for practically no reason. like i know why i feel bad but other times it wouldn't have brothered me as much. but now it does. i should not want to ghost everyone and disappear because someone made a mild joke or i didn't do very well in recent attempts at socialising or whatever. makes me feel stuck. stupid ass illness