u/Klutzy-Wafer-258

Me(16f) and my mother recently got into a fight because I lied that I was going to study with my friends but instead spent the whole day with my boyfriend (18m) in London. I told her shortly before going out that I had lied, apologised a lot and said I didn’t understand why I kept letting her down. She seemed calm and responded saying we would talk about it when I got home (I was staying at my dad’s house at the time). I felt much better and still went out.

Today as she came home her attitude had completely shifted and she looked pissed (understandably). She told me to come speak to her in her office and then continued to shout at me for 30 minutes saying I had manipulated her, used her, and constantly lied to her. I didn’t agree but kept my mouth shut. She kept saying my dads parenting was to blame for the horrible way I acted and then brought up a past argument where I had told her I didn’t feel like she listened to me asking how I expected her to do that when I lied so much. For context she refused to believe I had ADHD (have finally been diagnosed and am on meds which she is completely against) for most of my life, even after bringing it up repeatedly, and doesn’t believe me with minor things (this started long before any major lies/arguments). I was told by my therapist (not diagnosed) that I am depressed (not suprising as I have SH’d for most of my life even as a 6yro. Tried to KMS once which no one knows about).

She always tells me to think of a punishment for myself but never makes it clear what she wants out of it, I try to reason with her but she just says I manipulate her. She always makes everything about herself, for example when she told me about how my SA’er (her ex) claimed to have 🍇 me, she started crying saying how scared she was and told me a 20 minute long story about herself. Idk wtf to do, she’s a good person but idk how to work with her when she acts like this.

I’m scared I’m just breaking up our relationship further and I don’t want to fall into a su!c!dal episode again. Also what punishment should I pick?

Wha to do with friend

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My mum makes me think of my own punishment.