u/Klutzy-Zebra4277

He’s on palliative care for a few months now, we made the appointment today and the dr will come to the house and put him to sleep here at home, just the thought of doing all this was exhausting, painful and made me feel like dying, we will dig the hole tomorrow where he’s going to rest forever in our family home, I cry all day but it was needed, and I’m sure someday I will understand that I’m doing the best but fuck me this is hard, he was the absolute best boy during this 8 months of failed electrochemoterapy then amputation of his grin leg and now the tumors came roaring back, he had enough
I just love him so much

He’s on palliative care for a few months now, we made the appointment today and the dr will come to the house and put him to sleep here at home, just the thought of doing all this was exhausting, painful and made me feel like dying, we will dig the hole tomorrow where he’s going to rest forever in our family home, I cry all day but it was needed, and I’m sure someday I will understand that I’m doing the best but fuck me this is hard, he was the absolute best boy during this 8 months of failed electrochemoterapy then amputation of his grin leg and now the tumors came roaring back, he had enough
I just love him so much

I don’t know what to do with my pain, I want to make this all about him but I’m struggling with anxiety and grief
He was diagnosed with apocrine carcinoma 6 months ago, we went through electrochemoteraphy but it didn’t worked, then they amputated the front leg but they couldn’t remove all the cancer from his body

Right now he’s fine; eating well, gets tired easily, but overall he’s super interested in walks and sniffing around