But why? To a former friend.
It’s been almost two years since I’ve talked to you and a year since I saw you walking on by on a crowded street.
I’d mourned our friendship and let go of how horrible you treated me making me believe you really cared and then later on hearing how badly you’d talked behind my back and spread lies about me to our colleagues and rumors I was having an affair with you.
I should have confronted you when I found out everything but I knew you’re a coward and wouldn’t ever admit to the things you said or did.
It’s pretty unbelievable that the campus didn’t let you go after dating a student. I don’t care if they are in college; you were still her professor and it repulsed to me you had a power dynamic with that student. I saw the way she would follow you around and stay late. But I guess since she wasn’t an adult it didn’t matter to you or the campus.
Leaving campus to find new employment and start new was a huge relief and it took me nearly 7 months to come to terms that what I had gone through was traumatic. Not just with our friendship but the accusations and staff and students hating me for things I never did.
I had heard you left and moved to another state.
About a month ago was reached out to reapply so I did because I loved what I did for work.
Was quickly hired and put right back into the swing of things into my old position and was welcomed.
Everything seemed so easy like things just fell right where they were before all the bull crap.
Then yesterday happened.
Tell me why you were sitting in my office?
Why? There’s no way you couldn’t be completely idiotic to not know you would be the last person I’d ever want to see again.
But there you were wide eyed waiting.
All I could mutter out is “NO!” I must have looked like I could have done something dangerous because you stood up so quick and left.
For the rest of my work day I shook and felt sick.
I asked a colleague when you returned and they said about a month ago.
It’s like some cosmic joke for you to be here.
My stomach is in knots but I’m going to try and be the bigger person.
I just don’t understand why on earth you would think I’d ever want to see you again.
We haven’t spoke in two years.