u/Kobieca_Logika

Since I remember I felt different from the rest and most of the time I have NOTHING in common with your normal human being. Because of that I learned very easily to not value human connection at all because what is even the point if I gonna be misunderstood most of the time. I learned how to talk with normal people, how to keep shallow conversations but in reality both parties feel no chemistry at all. I don't even keep talking to my family because they are just like the rest and will never trully get me.

I know business is mostly about connections and as long as I focus on another person I'll be safe because there is nothing people love more then answering about themselfs but in everyday life I feel this very heavy weight to find alternative way of life because anything "normal" just isn't for me.

Because I never trully wanted to fit in I developed some traits that helped me become the way I am. I am very "brave" (as I heard) and I stand my ground, I am the first person to help you if you get attacked in public, I felt no shame in public speaking, I am a huge dreamer but also very action oriented person, I always seem to stand out with my outfits, I always loved checking reaserches about anything starting from chemistry to ending up on religion.

I just seem to have this huge resentment towards sheep mentality and how everyone thinks "this is the way it is, you cannot change it", how everyone seem alike in dressing, thinking or even feeling. How nobody does any reseach before making a decision, how everything is mostly based on vibes and instincts, how it is all a specticle of making exacly the same decisions and ending up in exacly the same dead end.

He just went to the doctor, his blood it terrible, he has very poor diet, possible depression and when I try to talk to him about changing habbits he gets defencive and tells me how horrible I am.

He is only eating fast food, suragy drinks. When we moved in he tried to forced carnivore diet and eats only meat. Any vagetables, fruits, traditional foods - he can't touch it. When he tries he spits it out. His poor habbits got inpact on his mental health and he thinks this is funny to joke about killing himself.

For some reason I met a lot of ENFP's with body dysmophia. I don't know why this personality type is more prone to it then others but here we go. Can I make him listen to me and start changing his habbits for the better?

And everybody else got more bubbly version.

Since childhood, really. I've seen violence, addiction, crimes, families torturing kids and yet when I speak about it people keep on hating me for daring to experiencing it.

I've seen so many old men trying to be gross with young girls and when I point it out I get shamed for just telling about it.

I've seen so many of old people bulling young ones at work and yet when I point it out "I have no respect for elderly".

I think live is really harder for NTJ people because we are naturally more cynical, therefore more likely to not fallow blindly rules, traditions, beliefes, systems and people naturally feel like they need to punish us more for not obeying but what is interesting to me is how those people can be so ignorant towards the consequences all those above bring to them?

I feel like life is just a stupid game when whoever notices a patterns of behaviour is an enemy or shold just keep their mouth shut and ignore it