u/Krappyka0

So we all know that AQA A-level history paper 1 for the Tudors was a bit nasty with the essays however I've fully messed up...

I was so confident (exam adrenaline and nerves) that I knew about the Henry VII one until I walked out and realised I had completely misinterpreted patronage and in my into and thought the essay defined it as a balanced financial policy as opposed to what it really is which is rewards.

I think I'm so done for because I didn't give any examples of rewards and my argument was more about him being too harsh and the other side was times he was more reasonable, I know now that I could have fully done it with the evidence about Jasper tudor and also balanced it with the lack of rewards and argued something about it being punishment as he was not only not rewarding but also unreasonably harsh which would have been much stronger.

Overall my judgment was that with 'patronage' (reasonable financial policy) he achieved objective control however his personal dynastic insecurity meant without punishment to completely oppress any sort of threat he never personally felt in control. I used the fact he killed someone from his inner circle (William Stanley) and the extremity to which he took bonds ( seen with execution of E+D) as my killer facts...

I was also so so so anxious and stressed the entire time so that did NOT help

I'm so scared I'm going to be capped at like level 2 when the rest went well and I need an A and preferably an A*

Am I doomed? 😭

Hello,

I'm thinking about getting a diagnosis for autism when my exams end but I'm really worried that I'm just making it up/definitely don't have it and don't want to go through the hassle if it isn't worth it.

For some context I am 18 (F) and was diagnosed privately in 2018 at 10. I was diagnosed with 'very severe' ADHD and they told my parents I align closely with the criteria for autism/ present significant autistic traits too, but nothing was diagnosed. I took medication for a very short period of time (<6 months) and only got back on it last year. I'm on 60mg elvanse, idk if that's relevant but yeah.

The main reason I'm looking to see if I may have autism is out of curiosity and also the fact that some issues I faced still remain very present with medication so I'm more curious than anything else.

When I was little I struggled a lot with making eye contact, 'talking back', social ques, knowing when to speak ect. Even now I don't know how to conduct a conversation past small talk. I know how to socialise better now but before there was something I really struggled to understand haha.

I have always had things I'm very focused on but that may be explained by ADHD hyperfocus. Also I do have significant time blindness and disorganisation and lack of routine but certainly don't choose this. I also hate when things I intend to do/ expect aren't net and tend to spiral. I'm also the sort of person to repeat a story over and over and over and over again or keep bringing up the same thing I'm interested in and interrupt like that.

I know sensory issues are a big thing and I can't say I get them with food often, however with clothes ect there are certain things I can't sleep in or can only wear for certain things out of comfort. I also hate silk bedsheets but that may just be me. I also experience requirements that need to be met in a way, i.e.having everything I need to sleep properly and having everything a certain way, even down to stuffed animals.

The only other major thing worth mentioning (so I don't keep waffling) is I find noise very very overstimulating, like from someone walking near my room in the corridor. If the atmosphere isn't right I can genuinely start crying and I hate anything sudden or not produced by me. Can't stand the dinner table sometimes haha.

Of course none of these things mean I have autism and it may all be down to personal quirks or ADHD so I'm not trying to self-diagnose, I'm also sorry if this isn't very clearly explained. I would appreciate some help deciding on whether a diagnosis is worth my investment or on the contrary, a waste of time as the accommodations aren't worth it/ I don't seem to meet the criteria.

Thank you so much!!