u/LEXN_Beats

I love techno, but my adhd makes me incapable of producing just techno. I make house, trance, hardstyle, try genre blending more and more. While I love all music really, electronic/edm especially, most of my inspiration comes from being online. Mainly instagram. I think it's not inherently bad but there's something I cannot get over and that is the automatic process of comparing myself to other people I know personally and are active in the industry or the people I don't know.

I have big dreams, I have the passion and obsession, I have the skills that I hone as much as I can. I just cannot keep enjoying making music if I compare myself to other djs and producers.

A lot of people are jumping on trends, like the "groove" techno sound that's been around forever but has been more popular in the past 2 years or so. I feel like a lot of the scene is just the same formula just like with hard techno. Dont get me wrong, there are good artists in techno, like ignez, deas, alarico, chlaer.

Yet, I find myself in this weird limbo where I want to be up to date with the music and trends, but social media keeps replacing my passion with obsession of growing my reach, networking, needing to be the one with the numbers etc.

I have my own inspirations, that I find from being online, because someone eventually posts something good. You just need to know where to look. Then again, I find I enjoy producing less and less, because the feeling of love when I create gets overshadowed by all the comparisons I make to the others.

Is the solution to just go offline for a while and then come back when the damage gets undone?

I remember there was backlash 2 years ago or so. They started deleting comments supporting palestine, everyone was like fuck you hör berlin, we're not supporting zionists! Some hör affiliated shows were even cancelled if I remember correctly. Now it seems like the industry forgot about it alltogether, or hör had changed and I am not aware. Or the backlash was overblown to begin with.

So I switched from ritalin to vyvanse. I'm currently on day 6 of elvanse. My skin is really dry, I have dry eyes, dry and cracked hands, cracked lips. My body is itchy af too. I've been trying to stay hydrated but it's not doing much. I don't know what to do because I wanted to go hiking tomorrow, it would be like 8 hours, 300m elevation so not much. My intuition is telling me that 20 degrees Celsius, and full sun will most likely make me even more itchy, I'll sweat and the hike will be a nightmare.

Am I correct here or am I overreacting? I've been chugging water and electrolytes, used up like 1/3 of hand cream bottle today just for my hands but my body is still dry as hell.