u/Ladies_Man1011

Hi everyone, this is my first post here.

I’ve been with my fiancé for 2 years and 3 months, 2 years dating and 3 months engaged. It hasn’t been perfect; During the early stages of our relationship, I sinned against her and god by talking to another woman. Nothing sexual, we were texting for a few weeks and met up at a party. After that, I kept my distance. Once my fiancé found out, by going through my phone, we broke up. She was extremely distraught and hurt by my actions.

We got back together a month later, and I’ve been trying extremely hard to make it up to her and God. I promised her I’d embrace christianity, to save our relationship and myself. At the time I cheated on her, she was very close to God and I wasn’t. I was drinking to excess way too often, I would smoke, and I’d go to parties. Since we got back together, I’ve gotten even closer to her and God. We go to church every sunday, we do our weekly couples bible study, and we frequently talk about our faith and how far it’s brought us.

Every now and then, i experience bouts of guilt. I feel like I will never be truly forgiven for what I did. For hurting the woman i love most. I took her virginity before hurting her the way I did, and I feel extremely guilty for taking something precious from her, and going behind her back and hurting her. How can I continue on with our relationship, without always feeling guilty and feeling like I will burn in hell?