I didn’t listen to the DWS recap or finish the first season of them watching Traitors, so I may be missing context from the content I skipped.
I can’t hear what Rider is saying when they sign-off and he says it so quickly. It sounds like “trap your smoke in”. What is he saying and what does it mean?
I just wanted to share a blog I wrote when I found out my pastor/mentor/friend KILLED someone he was horny about. She was a mother to two children. This is my blog post after finally finding out he fucking did it.
I am no longer religious. I am a LOT older. I no longer love him because I don’t have a religion telling me to. Fuck the motherfucker.
I was just curious if it’s “by chance”, but I seem to have had the most interest in “shorter” guys. Ranging from 5’5”-5’8” max.
I can imagine that being a shorter guy could have an impact on how you develop your personality. Some buck up and become really intolerable in compensatory ways. Others really seem to lean in and just are themselves unguarded. The latter seem more emotionally in touch and good humored.
I don’t have a physical attraction to “short” as a feature. I just happened to have mostly had the best experiences with short men. I also do not have an attraction to “tall”.
I feel like I am in the minority, but I am intimidated by tall guys. I guess very tall women too. It feels very vulnerable to be so much shorter than someone in close proximity that could literally overpower me. I’ve never been one of the women that tall men were more attractive to me. I’m really just wondering if the fact that I’ve had almost exclusively good experiences with shorter men is unique to me or if there’s something behind it, like I think there might be.
Again, I’m also not physically “attracted” to height - be it short or tall. It’s mostly a non-factor on the front end - just seems to be a consistent trait I tend toward. Just curious if anyone else has experience with or thoughts about this?
Apologies if I’ve posted something similar before. If I have, it probably was a long time ago.
I am not asking medical advice. I have doctors that follow me. Asking mindset advice.
I (36.5 female) have been trying to navigate life with “health issues” and have been having a hard time parsing through what is “real” vs. what isn’t vs. maybe that shouldn’t matter so much either way.
I established myself with a primary care doctor a some years back. One year I brought to his attention my easy bruising. The example was pretty extreme and he referred me to hematology, just to make sure. Hematology ran an extensive series of labs and came back with a vitamin D deficiency. And also turned out issues that made them suspect autoimmune involvement.
I start Vitamin D at huge doses and am now on a daily supplement. Those have leveled out. I bruised still, but I think more normally. Maybe a bit more than normal, but not at the smallest of things anymore.
Rheumatology consistently found a specific marker for autoimmune involvement. This was shocking to me because I was a “healthy person” without many notable symptoms. Since the diagnosis and once prior, I think I have had three instances of weird health things that I find hard to explain outside of a random “flare”.
Except that 2 years ago, I started having crazy heart rate jumps. 130 bpm when I’d been sitting at my desk for hours. It started happening more frequently and I started feeling bad a lot of the time. I thought it was anxiety:panic attacks. Described it that way to the rheumatologist who put me on Cymbalta. It manages mood and “pain” (which he keeps forgetting I almost never have - nothing attributable to autoimmune anyway).
I took it for about three weeks and realized maybe I shouldn’t have. I tried to stop cold turkey as advised by him and ended up having the most insane experience that had me laid out on my office floor thinking I was dying. I was close to calling and ambulance and texting my husband asking him if he thought I was. It was the scariest thing. Took a dose of the meds and they made me feel worse and better. Had shivers and uncontrollable shaking for hours. But the nausea started to dissipate, the fear of death too.
Found a group about the damage psychoanalytic drugs can do. Started tapering that drug ASAP.
Heart rate issue persisted. Doc referred me to a cardiologist. Wire a heart monitor for two weeks. I have inappropriate sinus tachycardia and was diagnosed with POTS with a “poor man’s tilt table test”. I don’t think my surging heart rate was anxiety. It was always POTS.
Joining these groups… scientifically, based on peer reviewed medical studies, I agree with a very slow taper from psychoanalytic drugs. I’m almost done anyway. Autoimmune stuff? I still kinda feel like it doesn’t make sense. I’ll take the med to avoid involvement with my organs in case it is real, but I also am confused why and how I got diagnosed basically asymptomatic besides bruising and blood results. The POTS? This one makes sense to me. I see and feel it daily.
But the POTS group is terrible, talking about all this stuff that isn’t even a part of the diagnostic criteria.
Basically, ever since I was diagnosed with “maybe lupus” I feel like my life has been so limited. It IS weird that the POTS symptoms showed up later. I had never had those before and they are truly daily interfering now.
Ever since the diagnosis, I feel sickly and depressed. Prior to, I was walking 7 mile hikes on a regular weekend. 11-12 at max. I bitched about it and felt bad at certain points. But I was doing it. Admittedly this was before the POTS symptoms seemed to arrive. That’s a different ballpark. Maybe. Or maybe I always felt shitty and enjoyed my life more.
I am planning to experiment with “never heard anything but I have been a vision of health”.
Could this many doctors be wrong? Could something hit that fast that I still don’t really feel like fits my lived experiences?
I treat the autoimmune with meds. No noted side effects. But also didn’t feel “sick”. I will follow POTS recommendations (electrolytes, compression when needed). But man. Two years ago I was hiking a lot and kayaking against stream to see an island. My world has become so small. I am internalizing all of this too much. How do I get out of that mindset of being afraid of everything?
Hoping to get some information and lived experiences.
I would like to discontinue birth control but do not want to have a baby of my own. I’ve had the copper IUD and had issues with it. I have since been on Nexplanon and have minimal significant issues. But I do think it is affecting my libido and arousal (I don’t produce my own lubrication at all). I’m on my second or third Nexplanon and only on this one I have ceased having a period. I kinda like that, but also feel weird about hormones changing my body and wonder if it’s causing problems I don’t know about.
I took an estrogen-based birth control pill before these longer-acting reversible methods and the pills made me suicidal. Progesterone agrees with me better.
Anyways, 36 years old, don’t want to have a baby and my husband cannot have a vasectomy due to bilateral hydroceles. He would need to have a hydrocelectomy in order to have a vasectomy. I researched it and hydrocelectomy surgery has a high failure rate with high risk of complications. As of now, his hydroceles are not bothersome to him; the only reason to do the hydrocelectomy at this time would be to enable the vasectomy.
I’m pissed off that our easiest option isn’t available to us. I’m considering a bisalp and will be doing more research. Maybe it’s best I stick with Nexplanon. I really just don’t know. I’m about to do a deep dive into bisalp research, but wanted to ask here first. Can people share their experiences - the good, the bad, the ugly?
I am a mid-30s U.S. citizen. I am curious from other U.S.-ers if it is normal to take a day off or two (and which state you are from) and with other countries if this would be normal (and which country and further details you care to give).
By company policy, I cannot take any time off without pay, and I am afforded 80 hrs/yr. So I have to earn every single bit of time I am not literally inside the building at work. I have had more flexibility or more paid time off at other jobs. I know other get no paid time off but can choose to miss work without pay or have some else take their shift and also not be fired.