u/Last-Construction356

I was writing a vignette with all the gothic set dressings- including time period. After I finished, was thinking why not just update it to 2020-present. How would you personally go about achieving that, while being authentic and not “gimmicky” or hot topic adjacent. I write a lot of vampire media tbh I don’t know why really. Each stab I take at it needs to be different than the other so, why not make this one modern. I’d love to hear any reccs for modern gothic books as well.

As the title says my friend, passed yesterday and it’s hitting me very hard. I have been struggling with my mental health recently, and just having this happen yesterday is idek what to say. Me and my dog have been separated across country for 5 years. I got a call yesterday after I already was at a very low point saying she had an “accident” and the vet is basically putting the catheter in. I couldn’t even be there to pet her, and let her know that I didn’t mean to leave her behind. She was a very honorable little dog that had earned her attitude and wise air(atleast in my opinion). So knowing she was found basically declining, in her dog bed because (tw. I am still in shock to be honest sorry) broke her neck and couldn’t move just deeply, deeply upsets me. I don’t know how long my she was there until she was found, I’m still kind of speechless honestly and numb. I had a hard time growing up to be honest, I didn’t have friends really. Struggled a lot with mental health things, and Thumbelina was by my side through all of it, I considered her a best friend. We had 15, or I guess 10 really awesome years together. I’m really taking it hard right now and I’m hoping to get her ashes soon. I can’t believe she’s gone,man. I’m 24 and she would have been 16 this year.

I think I am coming to terms with the fact that there is no closing curtain or concluding remarks, abstract, etc., to what happened between us. What was a play to me, a whole production, is just a moment to you, and that gap unnerves me honestly. A part of me still admires you; I think the artistic part that sees you as a muse. Not in your perfection but something more earnest and childish. I still find you interesting, yet November 2024 upsets me still. There is so much I wish we could talk about; I still haven’t finished Utena. I wonder what you thought while you watched it the first time. There is a sad irony in all of the social cruelty I face that you, of all people, are the person I’m not in contact with anymore. It makes me sad, as you were honestly a blip-of-light spot ,truly – surprisingly, is that weird to say? It feels so. If most things can be summed up in an unrelated anecdote, it is a somber realization that I have no one that understands casual kaomoji usage anymore. I wonder about you ,friend, in a way that is neutral by forced ambivalence and contrasting confusion – not true apathy. Perhaps the nicest thing I can wish you is as much as I’d want to say more: You r missed (>_>).