Clutter Blindness
It's something that gets talked about a lot here. I totally have that to some extent, but there is this other weird thing that happens when I clean. The cleaner the house is, the dirtier it feels. Like, I wash my walls every 1-2 years. I did it last January and when this January rolled around, I thought, ya know. Probably doesn't need it this year.I do a deep clean of my kitchen about once a month. I used to do it every day, because I had so much anxiety over things being spotless. I am now going through menopause and just don't gaf anymore.
Anyway . . .
I am doing that this week and I swear that the cleaner the kitchen gets, the dirtier my walls look. If I clean the walls, something else will stand out as being dirty.
It's like it will never be clean enough but there is a certain balance of dirty I can handle. Like not dirty, really but cluttered. A little clutter on a table here or too much stuff on the counter. It all distracts me from every little thing that bothers me. Like there is a stain on my floor, near the garbage can. I thought about buying a bigger garbage can so I could cover it up until we replace the flooring again. When the kitchen is cluttered, I don't notice it at all. When it's meant to be spotless, well, there is that damn spot.
I hurt my back and am in a mood from taking meds, so I don't know if this is a vent, rant, or what. Curious if anyone else has this happen to them and if it's not part of what leads to clutter blindness.