u/Late_Smoke9253

( Link to last update^^)

We have definitely crossed the line from “close friendship” into something way more emotionally complicated, and the newest things that have happened honestly just made me even more confused.

Today he randomly sent me multiple shower pictures. Nothing explicit thankfully, didn’t show anything under the belly button, but he was very obviously not wearing clothes ( because who showers with clothes on..). And honestly, I ended up sending a few back later when I got in the shower too, which is probably beyond the point at this stage 😭.

But still, the whole thing just feels way too intimate to be completely meaningless.

Then later we were playing games together and having a really good time, and I asked him if I could post some of the videos of us playing together. He immediately said, “nooo don’t, people are weird.” , that response stuck with me. Because to me, it feels like he must know there’s something going on between us, or at least that other people would pick up on the energy between us. Otherwise why would posting harmless videos matter that much? It made me feel like he’s aware that whatever is happening between us doesn’t fully come across as “just friends.”

Another thing that happened that genuinely caught me off guard was when I randomly asked him what brand his microwave was just to keep the conversation going, and somehow he thought I asked him if he was homosexual. He immediately got super defensive, and instead of actually answering calmly or laughing it off, the whole mood got weird. That moment stood out to me because it felt like the topic itself made him uncomfortable way faster than a normal misunderstanding should have.

At this point, I honestly feel like there’s a possibility he’s dealing with a lot of internal conflict about his feelings. I’m not trying to force a label onto him, but sometimes it genuinely feels like he might know he feels something deeper for me while also feeling uncomfortable or ashamed about it. Especially because whenever anything related to being gay gets brought up, he either turns it into a joke, uses it as an insult, or gets defensive very quickly.
And the thing is, none of this by itself would convince me. But when you combine ALL of it together the emotional attachment, the constant attention, the physical affection, the privacy about people seeing us together, the pictures, the deep conversations, and the way he acts around me compared to everyone else, it just makes sense .

But at the end of the day I’m really happy with the progress I’ve made within just a month. To being just school friends to becoming the only person who really understands him and the only person he has a connection with ( his words not mine), I’m excited to see how the summer plays out.

( Added Link to the last update)

Okay, a LOT has happened since my last update . We’ve gotten way closer over the past few weeks and the flirting has definitely increased, but honestly that’s not even the main thing anymore. What happened yesterday genuinely caught me off guard emotionally.

For context, yesterday was our last day of school. Usually ppl leave early, so does he, so the night before I was literally begging him like “please ask your parents if you can stay the full day.” He actually asked them, and I thought he was gonna stay, but around 11am he texted me “I’m leaving ☹️” and I was like BRO ARE YOU SERIOUS and he was saying stuff like “I know, I’m sad too. I really wanted to stay with you.”

So I’m already upset about it, and then like a minute later he texts me “come outside.”

What makes this crazier is I’m pretty sure he was already IN the car with his parents when he texted me that. Apparently he told them he had to go get something for a teacher, but instead he literally ran all the way around the school just to come see me before leaving. And when I say ran, I mean RAN because from the parking lot to where my engineering class is takes at LEAST like 3-4 minutes walking, and he got there insanely fast

So I go out into the hallway by the exit door and he’s just standing there outside waiting for me. I opened and asked him if he was gonna go say goodbye to the rest of the class and he literally goes:

“No, I just came to see you.”

And then he pulled me into this huge hug. Like FULL hug. Pulled me in himself. And I could genuinely tell he ran the whole way because when he hugged me he was literally sweaty And I’m not even gonna lie, I started tearing up because I knew I was gonna miss him over the summer, and I just kept saying “yeah I’m gonna miss you too bro.”

But THEN later that day after he got home he randomly sent me shirtless pictures of himself THREE different times and I’m sitting there thinking… even with my closest guy friends in my entire life, I have NEVER had that happen before. And we were talking about random affectionate stuff too, like me telling him I love the way he smells and how pretty his eyes are.

But his mom is mad at him for something, so he doesn’t think he’ll be allowed to hang out for a while, which sucks because we already had plans to hang out one on one over the summer. I told him “next step is making sure your mom isn’t mad anymore” and he literally responded with “for real, I’m gonna beg her to let me hang out with just you.”

LIKE ???

I genuinely don’t know what to think anymore because this does NOT feel like a normal friendship to me. Also earlier that week we were decorating the auditorium for our award ceremony, and both days he kept going out of his way to spend time with me

On Monday I missed lunch because I was decorating, and anytime I’m gone he always notices and texts me asking where I am. So when I told him I was in the auditorium, he literally left lunch and came all the way over there just to help me decorate and stay with me. Then Tuesday we were decorating together again all morning, and when we went to lunch instead of sitting with all our friends he asked me if I wanted to go somewhere else with him. So we sat alone together in this empty hallway and had this really deep conversation about life and emotions and stuff, and I’m not gonna lie it genuinely felt like a lunch date

Original Reddit post ^

So I posted about a week ago about this guy I couldn’t read at all and yeah… things have definitely changed. We're actually close now. like we sit together at lunch here and there and it’s not just small talk anymore, we’ll get into real conversations and just stay there for a while. it’s lowkey one of my favorite parts of the day now one of the main things we talked about was how he doesn’t really like being at home and wants to get out more, and I kinda just said we should hang out sometime which was def scary for me to send atm and I didn’t expect this but the thought of him actually makes me *want* to come out. Not because I feel forced, just because I feel safe with him like that and wanting to be more open with him.

We added each other on tiktok finally and now we talk literally for hours, even during school. and when he leaves or the convo ends I actually get kinda sad which is new for me, and once I see his notification I literally like scream inside, also this might sound dumb but I swear he has to be talking to his older brother about me?? His brother is a senior and I’ve rarely even spoken to him but every time he sees me he smiles at me like he knows something 😭 it’s happened too many times for me to ignore, so there's that.

Dude we even had a whole conversation breaking down brokeback mountain together which… yeah idk that felt kinda loud and obvious a little...and he’s way more comfortable physically now too. like he’s kinda touchy but not with everyone, and I feel like I get that side of him a lot more and bro when I see him my heart just drops but in a good way?? like it’s warm but intense at the same time so yeah I don’t think I’m crazy anymore. this doesn’t feel one sided. but I still don’t fully get what he’s thinking because he’ll joke stuff off sometimes or act like nothing happened, all I know is this is way deeper than I thought it would be and I’m kinda just letting it happen at this point and letting time take the wheel.

I honestly think my main drive is to tell him abt my sexuality. Maybe if I do, he'll tell me abt his too.