My mom just passed away
Im 17f and my mom 52f who had cancer died about an hour ago in her sleep, she was in no pain. I just had gone outside with my sister when it happened and my brother called me to come back, he sounded calm. When we got to her room my brothers girlfriend was there crying and we knew right away she had passed.
I felt nothing even though i started crying but i know i havent prosessed this at all and im scared when is it gonna hit me.
We spent the whole day in the hospital because her condition had crashed, she barely was breathing, she was so heavily medicated she wasnt making any sense and was just staring straight forward and was really quiet. She didnt even look at any of us. Then they had to give her something to make her fall asleep basically unconscious, after that her breathing sounded so painful i couldnt be in the room, for the most part i was just sitting outside her door waiting for her to wake up, which she never did.
What should i focus on now? What has helped you with losing a mother? How do i continue in life rn, im starting my last year in school and i have finals i should be studying for and i dont know how im supposed to do any of that