Did you see me? I saw you!
I knew this day would come. I saw you walking while I was pulling out with my friend “J”. She noticed you first and told me you were right behind us. I so bad wanted to jump out of the car and run into your arms and kiss you. But I knew if I did that you would think that I forgave you for the horrible way you treated me the last time I saw you.
I could never forgive your actions that day because no matter what you think it changed us and it’ll never be the same again. It hurts to the core and everyday I’m healing and trying to figure out who I’ve become through the last 5 years. I lost myself and became this weak woman who allowed and looked away towards your disrespectful behavior towards me. I loved you with everything in my soul and thought we would grow old together.. But now that will never happen. I know that I don’t hate you even if I said that..I still love you and nothing was a lie in my feelings for you. I wish that we could have ended things differently but we didn’t and I just want you to know that you’ve been in my dreams lately and if you still feel the same way about me…I guess I’ll never know