u/LeftHook_RightHook

I want to start MMA, and I will. But I gotta organize myself well, since the gym I wanna go to is not close to my town, and I'm definitely not in the right shape to start (I will get an heart attack in my first training if I go like this). So, I will start my diet in two days, on Monday.

But while I wait and do my diet, what are the exercises that will help me the most in training and for MMA in general? Like, I have a jumping rope, but what else will I need for training?

Thank you in advance

I'm 16. Boys of my age usually have their first crushes, first loves, first kisses, exc.

I never, NEVER felt any of this. I never felt romantic love, never had a crush, never wanted a romantic relationship; like, damn it, I rarely even feel platonic love.

Thinking about this makes me want to cry, knowing I will probably never have a romantic relationship. Knowing I will never feel love for a woman or man, I will never have a partner, a wife or a husband. And I've seen some of you guys cheering for the PRIDE month, being proud of this sexuality (If it is considered a sexuality. I don't know). They even made a flag of this thing. I've seen a guy here who even made an asexual ring.

Now, I'm not here to tell you what to do. I just want to ask you how the fuck can you feel proud, ALMOST happy, of this.

This thing is a curse. I don't feel proud for this: I feel like I've been cursed with this shitty sexuality, which is probably the worst one existent. I don't feel ashamed, I just feel like if I have to cut my chest open, take my heart out, and fix it. That's how painful it is. It's a torture thinking about the fact that I'll have nobody really important next to me when I'll be older.

I don't feel "unique and original" like some of you guys do. I don't feel proud of what I (Don't) feel.

How could I feel proud of a malediction?

I'll try to keep it as short as possible, so you can keep doing what you were doing.

I'm a 16 year old boy, I like both boys and girls, might be either bisexual or pansexual. Not that I really care, I'm not one of those people who make their sexuality their whole personality.

Anyways, it's been years and years, and I never, NEVER felt love for anyone. Not even a crush, not even a single thought about affection.

"And what about sexual attraction?"

Well, that one is another thing. Damn if I feel it. I feel it a lot. Maybe a little too much sometimes. But it doesn't matter: for how much I try, I CAN'T feel love in any way with any girl or boy. I tried hundreds of times, I chatted and met hundreds of people. Damn, I even wrote to a pair of femboys in my life (But I'll tell that story another time). It doesn't matter: I always get tired in less than a week and disappear.

Honestly, if it's what I think it is, it's terrible. If it is what I think it is, it means I'm aromantic. Might be one of the worst sexualities you can ever be, especially if you're bisexual/pansexual like me.

It means I'll never feel love for anyone. I'll probably never have a girlfriend or a boyfriend. I mean, if you can't feel romantic love, what's the point of having a relationship?

I wish this sexuality didn't exist. I hate this.

It doesn't matter how much I train my abs. I never, NEVER feel them. I tried everything, every single damn exercise I found on Youtube. It doesn't matter.

I just "finished" what is SUPPOSED to be an abs workout. I don't even feel a single one of my abs hurting. While my neck feels like it has been hit by a baseball bat. For the rest, I just feel fucking nervous. I couldn't do a single exercise correctly.

I really hope most of the power from a punch comes from the legs and shoulders, because if core strength matters that much, I'm gonna have such pillow hands I'm gonna make Belal Muhammad look like Carlos Prates and Alex Pereira combined.

I'm 16, with almost ZERO experience in martial arts (Except for 6 months of kickboxing or shit like that in a stupid little gym in my town). So, I got zero bases for MMA.

I have an awful cardio, I'm 5'7 but 185 pounds (Overweight), there's no way I can survive a weight cut, and many other things...

So, I'm not physically gifted, I'm not experienced, I'm starting late, and the gym I SHOULD go to is even far away from my town.

I don't know if I have enough heart to start all this. I feel like it's gonna be another failure like all (And I mean all of them) the sports I did before. They always told me MMA is the most difficult combat sport together with wrestling, and without any martial arts bases, I'm not sure I'll ever be ready to start this journey.

I don't wanna waste the few years remaining of my life, I wanna try to do this. But honestly, I don't believe in it too much. And if you were in my situation, you would feel the same.

Just tell me if I should start this or move on and watch others doing MMA.

I hanged a boxing bag in my grandpa's house because I wanted to train a bit before I will start doing MMA this year.

I'm still not entirely sure about my style, but I mainly use boxing and elbows.

So, while I was hitting the bag, I started using the southpaw stance, which was much easier to use than the expected. And, to switch back to orthodox, I had the idea to use some sort of long, left hook, putting my left foot forward while I hitted the bag. And it was kinda cool as a move.

But, would it be useful in MMA? I want to know if it will work when I'll start training or if I should stop using this move.

Thank you in advance. And sorry for any potential grammar mistakes.