Hidden madhurya bhav for devi
I think there were lot of saints who had madhurya bhav or spousal bhav or lover bhav towards devi or any of her forms but they never showed it to the soceity and instead practiced it in secrecy. Even the deity loved them as well. A great example would be adi shankaracharya where we can see his suppressed madhurya bhava for devi where he descibes her bodily beauty particularly erotic descriptions. I know a lot of people won't agree with me and they would say he is just saying from mother point of view. But trust our soceity has made it harder for males. Whenever a female keeps madhurya bhava for male deities she becomes akka mahadevi or mirabai. But when a man tries to approach a devi with madhurya bhava then everyone starts saying that he is a sinner or devi will destroy him. So male saints became scared of these kind of people in the soceity and started practicing madhurya bhava in secrecy. Erotic devotion has always been misunderstood in this era whereas devis like lalitha tripura sundari represents erotic love.