Do I still have friends or have they turned into people who surveillance me? And why..?
A few years ago a traumatic event took place in my life and I had removed a lot of people. I stopped going out to events, birthdays, social gatherings etc. and still haven’t returned to that life I once lived. I even changed careers completely. I also stopped posting on IG (maybe once every 2-3 months on my feed, occasionally on my story and it’s been private up until recently).
I’ve always been reserved and to myself, but now more than ever I feel extremely isolated. For about a year I have tried to meet up with friends, grab dinner or lunch jump back into it and nothing ever happens. I have really grown into a new person and I’m happy, but why are my “friends” not being friends. I have them in my close friends on IG and they always watch, but rarely respond to my posts. A lot of the times they don’t text me back. Did I isolate myself for too long? Have I just outgrown them? I want to stop using close friends and just post publicly like I used to. I felt like back then I expressed myself so freely and had more convos with and support from strangers. But because of this traumatic event I had built a wall.
Anyone experience this or have advice? I’m also moving out of state in a month and no one has made an effort to see me after I’ve expressed wanting to!! Anyways.. yea..