Is it still rape if I don't fight and I say "Just do it already." Or "Just get it over with."? I'm struggling because I often said this to my abuser bc ik he would fuck me even if I said no or fought him. So does this count as rape bc idfk anymore
My dad was sentenced to 1 1/2 years in prison and 5 years parole after that. His charge was rape in the third degree and I have an order of protection which I'm pretty sure is a more serious restraining order but it lasts 10 years. I really don't know how to feel, before this my nightmares were starting to be less serious but now I can feel his hands and mouth all over again and it makes me physically ill. I can hardly eat properly, and on top of all this I'm about to switch therapists to an adult team and I'm terrified. How do I manage these feelings? How can I rid his touch of my body or is that something I'll never forget?