I'm done...I want out of this world
I'm probably gonna kill myself the moment I get the chance, which is hopefully soon.
For context, I'm 27 years old dude from the middle east, and my story is very unusual but I'll share it anyway.
The main reason I'm alone is that I'm living in a religious country, among religion society, in a religious family while being a closet atheist.
Of course, marrying a Muslim woman will always end up in misery for both of because of our different beliefs, which I can't hide forever from someone I'm living with, and I can't really leave my family behind and travel to another country just for a relationship.
I resent my family and society for my whole situation...I resent everyone...I've never done anything to deserve this...This was but among the many dreams that I've lost, and I know the universe won't ever make it up for me, because the universe isn't a thing or even an entity...It won't make it up for me because the "universe" I'm talking about is fucking lifeless and unfair.
I'm done with this world...I wasn't even given the chance to hope or think things would be different one day...This is the definition of a lost game that didn't even start.
I don't even know if I would be a good partner or not because I was never exposed to the dating world to begin with....I deeply resent this world...I have way too many things to actually complain about, but I've kept it limited to the sub I'm talking in.
I don't actually expect anyone to read this because none could relate to my unusual situation, but I had to vent it anyway.
Goodbye world...my standards were already low, but you found a way to go even lower.