u/Limp-Assumption2200

Im 16F turning 17 in a few weeks. It’s the summer before my senior year and I am so frustrated because I feel like I’ve wasted my time and youth. I also keep messing up my oppurtunities.

All my life, I’ve been sheltered. Never able to go out unless it’s with family or school. My parents never having a stable vehicle or source of income made the chance of leaving the house lower as well.

Sure it got miserable being inside all day, having nothing else to do but look at a screen. But I understood because I was young and I always seen my older brother go out and do things so I assumed that would be my future so I never worried.

But I began to notice a pattern when I turned 15. Everytime I asked to do something, it’s like my mom never applied pressure to actually get the activity done, unless it involved a school group. It’s like opportunities would just fly away. This year it’s gotten so much worse, I asked for a job she got angry and told me I’m still a kid, its her duty to pay for everything. But she gets angry when asked for expenses.
So on, so forth, I ask to go out with friends she says no, she doesn’t feel like driving me. And maybe next time. Even when I ask to go out with my cousin she tells me no.

The one time this summer she allowed me to go out and see a movie, I messed up my opportunity because my friend smelled like weed. I know it’s bad.

My older brother is 22 but when he was my age my mom let him go out a bunch, get a job, let friends over. I asked her why she claims it’s because “I’m a girl so it’s different“. I have no desire for boys or going out to drink or do drugs..

To gain more freedom this summer, I made the bold and harsh decision to stay with my dad for a few weeks. (He’s not the best father either and they’re divorce) It took me the whole world to even let that happen. She barely lets me see him. And now, I’m so sad all I do is sit in the house and rot. I love my mother so much but I have no prior experience and it’s beginning to show. It’s depressing me I feel like I’ve wasted my life.

Im 16F turning 17 in a few weeks. It’s the summer before my senior year and I am so frustrated because I feel like I’ve wasted my time and youth. I also keep messing up my oppurtunities.

All my life, I’ve been sheltered. Never able to go out unless it’s with family or school. My parents never having a stable vehicle or source of income made the chance of leaving the house lower as well.

Sure it got miserable being inside all day, having nothing else to do but look at a screen. But I understood because I was young and I always seen my older brother go out and do things so I assumed that would be my future so I never worried.

But I began to notice a pattern when I turned 15. Everytime I asked to do something, it’s like my mom never applied pressure to actually get the activity done, unless it involved a school group. It’s like opportunities would just fly away. This year it’s gotten so much worse, I asked for a job she got angry and told me I’m still a kid, its her duty to pay for everything. But she gets angry when asked for expenses.
So on, so forth, I ask to go out with friends she says no, she doesn’t feel like driving me. And maybe next time. Even when I ask to go out with my cousin she tells me no.

The one time this summer she allowed me to go out and see a movie, I messed up my opportunity because my friend smelled like weed. I know it’s bad.

My older brother is 22 but when he was my age my mom let him go out a bunch, get a job, let friends over. I asked her why she claims it’s because “I’m a girl so it’s different“. I have no desire for boys or going out to drink or do drugs..

To gain more freedom this summer, I made the bold and harsh decision to stay with my dad for a few weeks. (He’s not the best father either and they’re divorce) It took me the whole world to even let that happen. She barely lets me see him. And now, I’m so sad all I do is sit in the house and rot, I have no prior experience and it’s beginning to show. It’s depressing me I feel like I’ve wasted my life.