u/LizCW

I know it's telling on myself for not being a "true Mainer" but today marks 40 years since I moved here! It was 4th of July weekend, 1986, when my parents moved up from Massachusetts to Springvale. There's family history in the area, my maternal great-grandfather graduated high school in Sanford way back when the Willard building was the high school, and my dad's family lived around here before moving to Mass in the 70s. Though I've moved three times since Springvale, I've been in Maine ever since and have very much adopted it as home. 💜

Hard to believe it's been so long, most of my life really. Wasn't even in kindergarten yet when we moved, but I still remember the drive up. So glad we did though, not just for the state but because this is where I met my husband! We were high school sweethearts, first met as friends in sophomore year, fell out of touch, then reconnected senior year when we met in study hall. Started as friends, ended up going to prom. We've been together 26 years now. 🥰

Can't imagine living anywhere else.

Had an experience, many years ago, early 2000s, maybe 2004 or so. I'm wondering if it is recollection of merging or shifting in a timeline. Perhaps this was when the cornucopia disappeared for me, I don't know. Anyway...

My husband (boyfriend at the time) and I were in the car, he was driving. As we're going about 40 down a stretch of main street by the airport, everything goes away for a moment. Reality just was *gone*, and there was just this blank white void in front of me. It lasts for about 3 seconds, then everything returns.

We hadn't moved 3 seconds worth of movement in that time, we were exactly where we were before, unchanged speed and everything. He experienced this too and immediately asked me if I'd seen that white light. I did.

For how *thorough* a white void it was, you'd think it would've been bright. It seemed like it should be bright, but it wasn't, I didn't have to squint like I do in sunlight. It really was just a blank nothingness.

My initial thought at the time was that we had been scanned by aliens. I am that sort of person 😅 but as the years go by and I've noticed ME stuff, I've begun to wonder if that was some kind of temporal/timeline effect. Wish I'd known about this phenomenon sooner, so I could better estimate if that's when things switched.

My psych wants to switch me from daily risperidone tablets to invega sustenna monthly injection, to reduce/eliminate some mild tardive dyskinesia from the tablets, but I'm scared as hell, it's like, if a tablet causes unpleasant side effects I can just stop immediately, but a month-lasting injection if there's a problem it will last longer, no escape hatch on it, and I'm just really scared it's going to mess me up instead of reducing side effects; what's been people's experience with it, is it as low-impact as my psych says or are they being overly optimistic?