u/Loikira

Posting as an amateur cellist who would like to have a better understanding of styles and pieces I play, as I am stating to get to the more expressive part of learning - and also have poor classical culture.

I would like to learn more about music history (I get the 4 main periods but don't know them very well either, or even remember who belongs where), so from that, to biographical stuff or backstory of specific pieces, to discussing composer's style or more narrow periods, to different form of music.

Anything that can help me understand music and have a more structured knowledge of it.

Reading is a struggle for me, so I'd rather take other suggestions but if you think a specific book is a must have, I'll note the title somewhere.

Thanks !

I did my first actual EMDR session with a therapist I've been seeing for a few months.

I don't really know if I'm traumatized or not. I don't feel like it. But I also feel like there's ugly things that need to be dived in. Somehow. That's weird.

I'm not sure I know well how EMDR works and what to expect.

We focused on a memory that seemed meaningful (the most difficult part of my life I have access to now) and a little triggering at the begining of the session, but that quickly went away and then I associated some thoughts without making much sense of feeling a lot. I think I understood it's not the point and it does not mean nothing happens.

But then, as the title says, how do I know if there's any point in what I'm doing, and when will I be able to tell ?