u/LongMomo67

Saw this clip and got transported back to BPD hell. People think it's exaggerated for the movie but no, this exact scenario happened to me where she made up a months long detailed narrative with full on acting and performances about how her relative was critically ill and dying. And it was completely made up so she could manipulate me

I'm so much happier now in a loving and secure relationship that I actively shut out the experience from my memory. I'll see something that reminds me of something I shut out and I legit start to panic. I hate how I want to be moved on completely and not carry on "trauma" especially to my partner now, yet I can't shake off what happened and the "trauma responses" I wish I could forget the entire experience completely

This godforsaken street spikes my cortisol every time I go on it. I'm either the one who's confused so I'm pissing people off or someone is confused and I'm pissed off at them. Or even better someone incorrectly thinks I'm making a mistake by stopping because I'm turning left onto a street with a red light and sits on their horn which raises my cortisol by 3000%. Monument Avenue is responsible for lost gains from cortisolmaxxing. Why would you put traffic lights on a roundabout. Every single time I go through it I get confused