u/Longjumping-Quiet428

So career is amazing, kids are successful. Healthiest I’ve ever been…. Now what?

Our 16 year anniversary is coming up. Our journey has been built on deceit, infidelity, mental health issues and actual good moments. Instead of intimacy though I have become my partners caretaker. We were never compatible and I absolutely rushed into this marriage quickly believing the narrative. Couples Therapy doesn’t help it just adds to his guilt and brings the narcissist out and I don’t want to become yet another person that walks away. We just made it thru a terrible 12 months of mental health crisis after crisis. He doesn’t need more dumped on him.

I have a very fulfilling career, beautiful family. Love my hobbies, pets and practice self-care. Shouldn’t there just be more? It’s been over 6 months and I understand mental health meds can impact intimacy. It’s just reached a point where I don’t want to further add to his self image issues. How do you cope?