u/Longjumping-Will-991

So, when I was in college , this girl randomly said to me ( because we were in all girls college - there were lesbian couples) that she hates lesbian and if a lesbian girl ever even sits beside her , she will shout at her and shame her for being the one . And little she knew enemy was way closer then she thinks -lol. Also, she believed that periods are a curse given by Indra to women , that's why we should refrain from going to temples -wth!!!!!. Also , she made a project on how indian men suffer so many false rape cases- which I agree but project in women safety debate????.Just wanted to share it here !!

Hey guys. I know this is still long, but I just want to talk my heart out somewhere.

My parents had a very unhealthy marriage, and both sides of their families were extremely toxic. My father's older brother and his wife treated my mother horribly, while my grandparents constantly favored my uncle's family despite everything they did. My father also had a medical problem from around age 14. Instead of getting him proper treatment, my family exposed his condition to everyone and made him work excessively.

My parents married when my mother was only 17 and my father was 25. Because of my father's medical history, everyone assumed he couldn't have children. After years of doctors and treatment, my mother had my brother. Instead of being happy, my grandparents accused her of cheating and claimed that my brother and I weren't my father's children.

When my mother was seven months pregnant with me, my uncle's wife physically dragged her onto the road, causing severe bleeding. Doctors thought I might not survive, and I suffered brain damage and childhood seizures because of it. Thankfully, I'm healthy now.

There were many other things, but these experiences deeply affected my mother and destroyed my parents' relationship. My childhood was mostly filled with fighting, screaming, and violence. My brother faced constant criticism and pressure, while I became extremely introverted. I was bullied at school, even by teachers, and eventually started hurting myself because I didn't know how to cope.

Later, I got stuck with toxic friends who destroyed what little confidence I had. I hated being around them but was terrified of being alone, so I couldn't leave. College became another difficult period, and some bad career decisions made things worse. I still don't know what I'm going to do with my life.

My parents provided for us materially, and I know they tried to give us what they never had. But emotionally, our home was extremely unstable, and growing up around constant conflict left me deeply insecure. During college, I also developed xxx addiction, which I still struggle with sometimes.

Looking back, I wish I had trusted myself more and walked away from toxic people sooner. Sometimes I wonder how different my life could have been.

Because I remember being a genuinely good kid. I cared about people, I had dreams, and I wasn't always this miserable and insecure person. I just want to find that version of myself again.

my_qualifications 10=92%,12=95%, bachelors=8.5cgpa, 23 year old(yes officially aunty now) no job , did ba hons in Econ from private college , coz didn't had maths in 11+12 , and rn I don't know what to do , is govt job late for 23 year old, can I make it in corporate ???