39[F4M] will you look at the world with me
I have recently come to several conclusions - one, that I never met the person I was supposed to meet because I did not start living the life I was meant to live until fairly recently. And two, that having an ice cream cone all to oneself is the loneliest experience.
I now live the life I dreamed about for so long - but it has cost me. The man I married could not compete with the excitement and richness of what I experience on most days of the week. He became insecure, and our marriage fell apart.
Some men think I am attractive. Some don’t. I don’t look nearly my age. I am not everyone’s cup of tea, but I’m very athletic. I am pale with green-eyes. I speak several languages and wish I spoke more.
I loved someone after the end of my marriage, loved fiercely. My heart has been pulverized over and over again. Still, it is so awesome to be alive and to have eyes and look at everything, and ride motorcycles, and go to punk shows, and try new foods, pet strange dogs, make love, take risks, defy the powerful, run with the hunted, make coffee while camping after waking up cold in the morning and not be alone for it, and to have a witness.