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I wish people were sweet
▲ 13 r/Obsessive_Love

I wish people were sweet

I understand he wasn't feeling the best but here I am alone again because he left me after I spiraled because he wouldn't even say hi.

Why can't people be sweet like the food I overindulge in?

I try to be understanding and caring and give them whatever they need, but they end up leaving when I ask for love in return.

When I eat cake it simply provides. It rarely asks for much and gives back plenty.

But it poisons you slowly.

I just wish there was someone who was willing to tolerate me. Because I clearly love too hard for anyone to love me.

u/LostYear9120 — 5 hours ago
▲ 18 r/Obsessive_Love

He's the best.

Oh my god. This boy is so amazing. He has apologized and corrected everything he's done wrong.

Last night he was upset and was trying to make me upset too, and this morning he apologized. I don't know why this means so much but he genuinely apologized and when I tried to apologize for getting upset he said "no, anyone would have gotten upset"

Like omfg he's so perfect.

I have told him the worst things I've done, and he never judged me. He accepted me for who I am.

He has agreed with me that my body isn't attractive, but he stays for my personality. I've been planning on working on my body anyways but I can't believe it. He's genuinely with me only for who I am?

On top of this he's the worst liar I've met. I've seen him genuinely try to lie and he's so bad at it it's so cute. The best part about this is how I know he means what he says. When he says he loves me, when he says He's sorry, it's all genuine.

I also also love how he doesn't let anyone bully him and what not. He is genuinely so confident. He is the only match for me. The most perfect person for me.

I'll never need another him and he'll never need another me.

u/LostYear9120 — 5 days ago
▲ 2 r/Obsessive_Love

I don't know how to title this other than a vent

So me and him are long distance (I know, sue me) and a couple days ago I was going through a time where I thought he didn't actually love me and was lying about the whole thing.

For context, my previous and longest relationship. My partner had hated me for half of it and had lied for half a year about loving me, and only didn't break up because she was scared I'd kms because I was gee I don't know, obsessed? (Shocker I know)

But every couple times when he would say he loved me I'd accuse him of lying, which was really annoying of me yes, but his response to it was to eventually stop saying he loved me or saying "I love you too" which shattered me.

So I did something irrational and blocked him, but only where we were talking. I regretted it but I thought he had genuinely started to hate me so I didn't undo it. I was posting sad stuff, when I noticed he had blocked me back. I only blocked him on one thing but he blocked me on tiktok, Twitter, and even Gmail.

Eventually we made up and apologized but now I no longer have access to any of his accounts, we have zero matching profile pictures anymore, and I'm still hurting from the argument.

I told him we would need to have a serious talk soon, and he said okay and understood that I was still hurting.

But today he ignored me most of the day, recently he hasn't been watching what I send him, and he didn't even say goodnight tonight.

I know he loves me but it hurts. It feels like he's pulling away as hard as he can.

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u/LostYear9120 — 12 days ago
▲ 4 r/Obsessive_Love

Playlist for this particular feeling

I have a playlist for like obsessive love songs and songs for like "crazy love"

Currently it only has 6 songs and lasts 19 minutes

Does anyone have any song suggestions to add to it?

I currently have:

The red means I love you,

Stalkers tango,

An unhealthy obsession,

The zombie song,

An unhealthy obsession (Friday 13th version),

Pag-ibig ay kanibalismo II

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u/LostYear9120 — 15 days ago
▲ 13 r/Obsessive_Love

I have no idea what this is, more or less just me ranting about my boyfriend.

My boyfriend is the best. He genuinely doesn't mind me being possessive and wanting him completely. My only wishes are that he'd understand my fear of him cheating and he'd be more jealous too.

However when he does get jealous it's soooo cute. Like yes Hun I'll block them. I love that he willingly gave me access to all his accounts and DMs. He's stuck with me and I told him. I told him at this point if he tried to leave I'd just find him again, and he liked it. I don't think he understands how much I meant it. I have his information, he can't run. I will find him. He has no idea how much he has changed me and I love it. I love messing with his head so he thinks of me. I love doing little things so he is reminded of me more often. I can't wait until I'm the only thing in his head as he's stuck in our house.

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u/LostYear9120 — 18 days ago